u/Mountain_Sentence_89

For context, I'm kind of in a stage where I still believe in God, but I now believe that he does not care with my suffering, after 8 years of very bad situations and no good resolutions from his part.

Right now, I am suffering because of scars from self harm that will never go away. I even prayed about this a couple of times, but I got nothing but silence. I don't expect much from God about that now, because of what I went through (I wrote about it in another post here) and what he hasn't done, and also because I don't know if I'm on the case of "my grace is sufficient for you", and I also don't know if that's something that's gonna only be solved in the afterlife. Anyhow, I don't pretend to pray for this for over 20 years getting no answers at all. (It's incredible, by the way, how a walk with God just makes you wonder in uncertainty like a shot in the dark, with no guarantees of good things in the end, but that's my experience, and I can be wrong.)

With that said, what do you guys do when you have something that makes you suffer but you know that God is probably not a good option to search for help? In other words, how do you guys help yourselves?

By the way, I'm not searching for therapy about this. Not that I'm against therapy or psychologists, but I don't want them trying to convince me to live a good life with something that naturally makes me sad. I'm not interessed in interpretations, new meanings and all that jazz.

(I'm sorry if I broke any rules unintentionally with my post.)

Minha história se passa na década de 1940 e se trata de um policial que é transferido para outra cidade e, ao demonstrar habilidades, acaba se tornando detetive. No entanto, um criminoso acaba sequestrando sua amiga (e interesse amoroso) devido à sua conexão com ele e devido ao pai dela possuir provas contra ele, de modo que acompanhamos o detetive em sua investigação e conflito interno, até que ele consiga salvá-la.

Eu queria saber como eu poderia atingir os objetivos com o público alvo da história, dado que eu pretendo voltá-la também a um público mais jovem, e também a como conseguir estruturar casos policiais. O principal foco da história não é muito a investigação (apesar dela também ser um grande motor para a história), mas também a evolução e o crescimento do personagem.

Demais conselhos e recomendações (de outras coisas que não mencionei e que vocês achem importantes) também são bem-vindos.

I saw once a video of The Professional about Jimmy Pegorino where he argues that he indeed knew, using a comment of Little Jacob on the last mission as evidence for that. However, I felt that what he said during the dialogue could be more a speculation and not necessarily reality (though it still could be).

What are your thoughts about this?

PS: By the way, this is probably not related, but I also wonder sometimes if Phil Bell didn't suffer anything from Dimitri as well, just like his boss.

Not considering the money you get (and that you get it eitherway), and Kate or Roman's death, I still see the Revenge Ending as the right option. I say this because the Deal Ending shows that Dimitri hasn't changed at all and that he is still very greedy. He kills the buyer and steals his money, and then tries to kill Niko again, and kills Jimmy Pegorino, his new business partner. This ending shows that he is not somebody you should be doing business at all.

Even if Pegorino gets mad at you for killing Dimitri, he has no idea about what was awaiting him if the Deal was done. In some weird way, Niko did him a favor, a favor that wasn't of any use because he still died anyway.

What do you guys think?

Hi. I'm new around here. I'm not a person really into this stuff of deconstruction, even though i reflect a lot about faith (and I don't know if that can be considered deconstruction in itself), and I'm not yet on the stage of abandoning completely Christianity. But yet, I saw some people in here posting some of the things and difficulties they went through, and I thought it would not be bad to share some of mine as well, just to vent.

I grew up on a Christian family. I wouldn't say it was a sectarian place, even though my mom was very strict about following that the Bible said that it was sometimes a bit uncomfortable. But it wasn't much of a problem.

My issues regarding the faith started when I was 13 and I changed of school. In my class there were a couple of boys who would mock me and make me feel bad. They would mock me for my surname, which is a bit different from the common, and do some other things they knew I didn't like. Some of those stuff made me cry in public. I even thought about suicide. I asked for help from my mother, but she didn't help me at all. Instead, she forbade me of making any complaints to the school's autorities, thinking it would be snitching. She thought what I had to do was to convince myself that some of those things weren't so bad at all, and that I was the one who shouldn't react to their jokes, so that they would stop with time and move on. She also tried to help me through the bible, talking about some verses in the book, instead of dealing with the problem of front. This went on also for the next year, and then I started to question myself: Why would God let all those bad things happen, instead of taking care of me? In the end, I decided to give up on Christianity.

The next year, those boys all were expelled of the school, related to other bad things they would do in class, disturbing the teachers. They were never punished for what they did to me, and they never will now. After a conversation I had with my mother one year later, and she recognized how those things have made me bad, and she apologized to me. I apologized, but the damage was done.

These events are still an issue for me today and a obstacle to a life in Christ. Specially because, if it were avoid back then, it would have also avoided many other problems I had later on. For example, I could never have gotten addicted to pornography, I could never had started self-harming, and I could not have scars today, something that makes me really sad. In reflection, God could have even allowed free will to those people who did bad to me, but at the same time, he could also have given a better orientation with the Bible so that a devouted person like my mother could help me.

Due to those issues and others that I didn't mention here, and also for the lack of answers in my prayers for all of those problems, I developed the belief, regardless of what theology says or what the academic studies says, that God does not care for my suffering at all. I don't think those areas can help me at all. I think the only thing that could convince me would be if God would show me the opposite with some practical application, fixing some of the those things that damaged me in the past. But I don't believe anymore he will and I gave up on praying for that.

I'm not thinking of abandoning the belied in God completely yet, but I think of how can I be a christian knowing he doesn't care for my suffering.

That is all. I'm sorry in advance if I broke any rule of this community with my post, and for bad grammar, I'm not from a country that speaks english. May you all have a nice day.