I haven’t drunk any milk since Friday and I’ve had no issues with running off to the loo in a major emergency. And that has been a problem for me for several years. I thought it was the coffee, I thought it was alcohol. Nup! Just a good ole dash of milk in my coffee or a horrendous bowl of cereal. Now this begs the question, am I lactose intolerant or allergic to milk? Is that a thing? I’m really interested to know
In my last post I asked if I’m intolerant.
I haven’t drank any milk today. My night shifts are shocking digestion wise, fart, inflammation, going yo the toilet in a hurry because I think I’m gonna you know what. Tonight I’ve only drunk black coffee and I haven’t so much as had a belly rumble!! This whole time I thought it was the coffee, it’s the damn milk!! I have suffered like this for frickin years. Wow what a relief. Not to mention my body feels clear and nice
I’m always struggling with gas and digestion. I feel uncomfortable all the time. Today I had no milk and I feel amazing. I know you guys can’t diagnose me but can I have some insight into what intolerance is like?
Wow, I was 100% nicotine free for awhile there. Got drunk, had a smoke which slowly turned into full blown addiction again. It was the worst. I was blowing money everywhere, I couldn’t stop. I looked up the cost difference in my state between smoking and nrt. We’re talking a $10000 deal here, it’s disgusting. Not to mention the smell and habits that go with smoking. Relying on other smokers to get a fix. I was giving $5 for a measly 2 smokes and just treated like dirt. So I’d buy a pack, smoke a few and throw them out. I think I blew over $200 in two weeks doing this. Anyway back on track now knowing it could’ve gotten worse. In a few weeks I’ll cut down again and get free forever, I just need to get distance between me and the sticks.
So I’m apt to get a few months up here and there. This has been going on for about a year. I’m really happy that I’m able to consistently get time up when I put my mind to it. Thanks to AA this is possible. Just this last bust hasn’t been fun. I swell up you know, feels like my midsection is gonna explode. Cramps in my legs and today, pulled a muscle in my back. It’s not nice and I know it’s from drinking. See when I get sober time up my health problems do improve, quite notably actually. In saying that I’ve been getting to meetings and almost a week sober. This weekend was difficult but what did I do? Called a buddy and it helped tremendously. You guys are true saints
So successfully got off nrt and cigarettes for over a month. It was good at first but I started getting some anger issues. I broke the other day, had a cigarette went a few days without and honestly would’ve been fine though still had some irritability. So I thought I’d get a cheap pack of gum. Chewed maybe 10 today and my anger and frustration is off the fu$&ing charts. It ain’t worth it guys, no matter how bad you feel smober using is ten times worse.
Love AA meetings and can’t wait to get to this afternoons. In the meantime the loneliness is unbearable. All my old comrades either smoke too heavy , do drugs or drink too much. I was just on my way out to see someone but it’s just a bad idea.
Anyway, I have the fellowship, a little bit of space filled up in my pit of emptiness. Anyone out there alone and in early sobriety AA is the answer. Get through loneliness, breakups, unemployment, financial strain, it’s all much easier to overcome it with AA.
Love you guys
Edit: got some air thinking about this; what if I didn’t have AA? I’d be screwed honestly. I think about all those ppl suffering because they can’t get a hold of their addiction. It’s as simple as that.
Tonight by getting to a meeting lonely and anxious I’ll come home empowered and smiling.
So yeah had a drink after 1.5 months. I don’t feel bad about, I was upset. Yep everything has been pissing me off lately. Seems the whole world is going in reverse. But am I going forward? I dunno, I feel I am. Stopped smoking a month ago and I’ve been off the weed longer. I think it’s all a culmination of my body adapting to new feelings. I reset my sobriety date just then and that made me feel better about myself. Helps me to connect with the program. At least I didn’t smoke anything, that’s a win for me.
Oh yeah and there’s no shining happiness because I had a drink. Maybe for a few hours when I did drink but that’s worn off, now i’m left with the same emotions as before so I proved nothing.
Three weeks no nicotine whatsoever. I’ve got huge amounts of energy, have been exercising everyday, work is a blast although I’m a little annoying to work with at the moment because I just don’t stop moving.
Loving it.
I visited my old smoker buddies (I’m talking chronic smokers) it’s a dangerous mission. They’ve been out of smokes a few days. They would do anything to get a cigarette but when I look at them I think “you look better than I’ve seen you in years”. They won’t listen though.
So smoked 26years since the age of 14. Got off the cigs and used nrt for 5 years. I just recently went 8days 100% nicotine free but last night caved and had one solitary piece of gum. It was amazing. My foggy head eased, I slept like a baby and woke up fresh as can be. Today I made a pact I’d only use one gum tonight. Started studying the concept of using the gum as a nootropic and found overwhelming evidence of its potential benefits and performance enhancing effects. Sounded like a great idea.
That’s when I realised that I’m an addict and was only trying to paint a pretty picture of me using again. So I said goodbye to the 190 delicious pieces of fruit flavoured hellpills, made the sign of the cross, said a little prayer, and sacrificed them to the bin gods.
Now I’m writing this at 9 days nicotine free (with a slight hiccup) realising that at the two week mark, maybe even a month I’ll truly see smoking for what it is. And right now I still wear the chains of the slave I am, I’ll know when I’ll be free when I’m free.
Amen
So a bit of background, smoked 20+ years and was hopelessly addicted. I was at my wits end knowing I couldn’t afford to smoke anymore and homelessness beckoned, especially with my alcohol and weed habit.
I ended up deliberately getting myself addicted to quick mist for four years and things really started changing. I saved money, joined AA and moved out of dingy living conditions. I, for my life, couldn’t quit the mist, every time I did I would obsess over that strong minty hit and go nutters over it until I’d cave. The mist is expensive too so it was causing problems for me, I had to quit. So I started using 4mg, and made sure, like the mist, I got nicely addicted to them. They don’t give a strong hit like the mist and it took awhile to stay on them. I was using the gum about a month. I checked out the quit smoke app “smoke free” and signed up to premium. I thought well, hypnotists charge 2-$500, a quit smoking specialist quoted $5000. This offered 24 hour counselling and other perks do I tried it and boom! Spent the money , felt accountable, and haven’t chewed a gum in five days. I feel like I got through the hard bit, anxiety, craving , bad sleep , headache, in about 3days. Last night I slept like a log and woke up, all cleared up I feel fantastic. I know like any drug, if I so much as take one hit again I’ll be on the wagon. So gotta be vigilant
Nearly 5 weeks clean and my back and knee pain are almost non existent. I thought ppl smoked medicinal for chronic pain. I had chronic pain
I’m Christian right. It’s always a touchy subject, so I do what Jesus says and “keep it in the cupboard” so to speak 🧐. I am in early sobriety and managed to hit the nail on the head of my cross addiction. What I’m finding is that after a few sober days my mind clears and it’s like God invites me to be his friend. For instance I’ll repent hard after a bender and then be overwhelmed with remorse for days even weeks if I can’t get sober, so much so I can’t pray or make God a way. But now I’m clear I am filled with joy and I need to meditate and pray, read and create. It’s almost like I lose a part of me.
Anyway the spark I’ve been so desperately trying to find in relapse was given through work and stern warnings, cmon get to it. And that gave me faith that if I held on I could do it, I could get time up.
Faith to me is a guide and way to live, practice and I will train myself not to be selfish, acknowledge my faults and find peace.
My old supplier is finally gone, moving far away!!
Just over a month clean now and the temptation of them being down the street was too much. But now I’m free. I also have AA rooms (no MA here) to keep me happy. I just have an overwhelming sense of peace and freedom.
So yeah, have dealt with auditory hallucinations for over two decades, probably not a good idea to be smoking the entire time. My main supplier ended up in hospital a month ago and is now wheelchair bound and I can’t deal with them like that. She was batshit mental before that anyway. Anyway 1 month weed free and I can barely even force myself to hear anything that isn’t otherwise there. My minds clarity is just so much more peaceful than it has been for ages.
Oh yeah I started smoking in my teens, thus a mental breakdown at the age of seventeen and a living hell of a life to follow. I countered my “disability” by training as best I could an athlete and that’s got me ahead in life. I cannot vouch enough not to smoke weed in your younger years. I’m smart ok, but couple that with delusion, I never even knew my behaviour was off the whole time, it’s embarrassing to recall so many incidents I wish I’d never created. Stupid drug!