u/Murderdoll93

This is a song i wrote in 2018 before I knew how dark things actually are. Although im not in the least bit surprised

This is a my pet green bottle blue tarantula. Her name is Kali

This is a painting inspired by the poem of the same name by sappho.

I got a lot of comments on the portrait of my father about it looking like a proto. So with this portrait. Im trying to make it look more like a painting. I am wondering if there is an easier way to do this than actively holding back the urge to render ever detail.

I really wanted a sphinx sculpture to display in my house but didnt like any of the ones I could find online they where either just inaccurate or they looked accurate but the proportion were off. So I just sculpted and painted my own. I have a video of the process. I was gonna post that here but decided to just do the pictures. I'll post the video on my account though

This was my next painting I did after the portrait of my father. This one was done in 2, 11 hour sessions. I have more mastercopies planned as they really are an incredible way to learn. But I tackled da vincis mona lisa first as ive always loved how it looks. The second photo is after I added some personal embellishments. Oh also I wanted it to look aged and weathered so I scratched up the surface of the paint with a sawing needle. And applied a yellow glaze to achieve that effect. Overall im happy with it considering it was freehand.

I decided to paint my dad. He died in 2006 of a heroin overdose. This is one of the only photos I have of him and one of the few that exist of him still healthy. So I chose this as my reference.

This mona lisa no longer exsist as I painted over it as a performance element in a different art piece but I did take a picture before hand. Also did you know some believe she is actually da vinci in drag. Also there is a timelapse of me painting this on my account

A timelapse of the painting process.

This is my first attempt at oil painting. I decided to paint my dad. He died in 2006 of a heroin overdose. This is one of the only photos I have of him and one of the few that exist of him still healthy. So I chose this as my reference. The painting took 4 8 hour sessions and it was a learning curve I'm hoping the process gets faster. Not that I didnt enjoy it. I just want to paint more and more often.

EDIT I'm sorry if ive been misleading. So to clarify I am not a beginner artist. I have been drawing my whole life and won national and regional competitions as a kid. I also dabble in sculpture. But this is truly my first time using oil paints. And my first time painting a portrait. Ive used acrylics to paint sculptures and and things ive built like my shield but that is vary different. I also have no formal background or qualifications in art. I went to a high school for kids with behavioural issues and they didnt have an art class. And although I did apply for collage art course after leaving school I didnt get accepted. Their reason for the rejection was that my work wasn't varied enough and to build a more rounded out portfolio then apply again but I never did. I instead studied performing arts. Then started singing and writing full time in multiple bands. And solo projects.

And after partying a bit to hard and beating addictions do multiple drugs and alcohol. And many close brushes with death i have slowed down stopped gigging and started taking my art seriously again. And I was always in love with the work of matejko, courbet, Sargent, goya and many others but they definitely stand out. I always knew I wanted to get into oil painting. And so I watched hours and hours of videos on the subject from teachers. And whilst still admittedly feeling intimidated by them. I was confident in my own abilities. So I bought everything I needed. (In retrospect I wish I had went with canvases) But I dont make much money and the investment had already made it so I had to rely on charity food donations to eat last month.

But everything arrived and I did this painting thinking that if it turns out bad and I get discouraged and regret the purchase. At the very least I'll know that it wouldn't be a lack of effort cause I care about the subject of the painting so much that it will be impossible to get lazy and not try my vary best to capture my father to the best of my abilities. And I got so much more out of the experience. Not just unpacking a lot of unresolved grief about his death due to heroin but about my own struggle with addiction including to the same drug that killed him.

But what the experience also taught me is how rewarding the experience of watching the painting come together and starting to see the subject staring back at you really is. And it made me realise that it doesn't have to be my father that im painting because that feeling I just described is what stopped me from being lazy and settling less. I trully fell in love with doing this. Thank you for reading all of that if indeed you did.

Just a song ive been working on.