u/Nalyd87

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I posted this in a comment of another post and a redditor reached out to me and said really letting this out might help me understand how I should feel about this.

This happened when I was around 6 years old and he was around 16 or 17.

"Nick" (the babysitter) was the son of a family friend and would play videogames with me a lot when he'd come over and he kind of became a big brother figure to me

One day my parents decided he could babysit me.

And once we were alone his demeanor changed and he wouldn't hang out or play with me anymore for some reason

I didn't understand why and I remember asking him "please could we play the ps2 together I'll do anything"

And he said "anything at all in the world?"

I said yes

Then he pulled his pants down and told me if I suck on it until he tells me to stop he'll play with me

So I did.

I don't remember many details besides thinking it was weird

At one point he told me to go faster and be careful with my teeth

Eventually he held onto my head so I wouldn't pull away and finished in my mouth.

He told me to swallow it and I did

After that I immediately went to the bathroom and washed my mouth out and brushed my teeth

He never did babysit me again after that and I don't remember seeing him that much again.

My parents and the family friend stopped talking not long afterwards too.

Subconsciously I knew what happened was wrong in a way but I never said anything to my parents or anyone else about it.

And i feel weird for not feeling traumatized about this

I wish it didn't happen because no child should ever have to do that

I personally feel nothing about it though. Whenever i think about it I just think "oh yeah that happened to me" but I don't feel scared ashamed or disgusted and I feel like I should.

I think part of the reason I don't feel traumatized is because I willingly did it

He didn't force me (until the very end)

I just..don't really know how I should feel about it

Maybe actually putting it out there will resolve this i don't know.

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I posted this in a comment of another post and a redditor reached out to me and said really letting this out might help me understand how I should feel about this.

This happened when I was around 6 years old and he was around 16 or 17. (I'm a male by the way.)

"Nick" (the babysitter) was the son of a family friend and would play videogames with me a lot when he'd come over and he kind of became a big brother figure to me

One day my parents decided he could babysit me.

And once we were alone his demeanor changed and he wouldn't hang out or play with me anymore for some reason

I didn't understand why and I remember asking him "please could we play the ps2 together I'll do anything"

And he said "anything at all in the world?"

I said yes

Then he pulled his pants down and told me if I suck on it until he tells me to stop he'll play with me

So I did.

I don't remember many details besides thinking it was weird

At one point he told me to go faster and be careful with my teeth

Eventually he held onto my head so I wouldn't pull away and finished in my mouth.

He told me to swallow it and I did

After that I immediately went to the bathroom and washed my mouth out and brushed my teeth

He never did babysit me again after that and I don't remember seeing him that much again.

My parents and the family friend stopped talking not long afterwards too.

Subconsciously I knew what happened was wrong in a way but I never said anything to my parents or anyone else about it.

And i feel weird for not feeling traumatized about this

I wish it didn't happen because no child should ever have to do that

I personally feel nothing about it though. Whenever i think about it I just think "oh yeah that happened to me" but I don't feel scared ashamed or disgusted and I feel like I should.

I think part of the reason I don't feel traumatized is because I willingly did it

He didn't force me (until the very end)

I just..don't really know how I should feel about it

Maybe actually putting it out there will resolve this i don't know.

​

I posted this in a comment of another post and a redditor reached out to me and said really letting this out might help me understand how I should feel about this.

This happened when I was around 6 years old and he was around 16 or 17. (I'm a male by the way.)

Nick (the babysitter) was the son of a family friend and would play videogames with me a lot when he'd come over and he kind of became a big brother figure to me

One day my parents decided he could babysit me.

And once we were alone his demeanor changed and he wouldn't hang out or play with me anymore for some reason

I didn't understand why and I remember asking him "please could we play the ps2 together I'll do anything"

And he said "anything at all in the world?"

I said yes

Then he pulled his pants down and told me if I suck on it until he tells me to stop he'll play with me

So I did.

I don't remember many details besides thinking it was weird

At one point he told me to go faster and be careful with my teeth

Eventually he held onto my head so I wouldn't pull away and finished in my mouth.

He told me to swallow it and I did

After that I immediately went to the bathroom and washed my mouth out and brushed my teeth

He never did babysit me again after that and I don't remember seeing him that much again.

My parents and the family friend stopped talking not long afterwards too.

Subconsciously I knew what happened was wrong in a way but I never said anything to my parents or anyone else about it.

And i feel weird for not feeling traumatized about this

I wish it didn't happen because no child should ever have to do that

I personally feel nothing about it though. Whenever i think about it I just think "oh yeah that happened to me" but I don't feel scared ashamed or disgusted and I feel like I should.

I think part of the reason I don't feel traumatized is because I willingly did it

He didn't force me (until the very end)

I just..don't really know how I should feel about it

Maybe actually putting it out there will resolve this i don't know.

I just got the game and I'm still getting used to it's mechanics and what not

But the stealth mission to rescue the headsman is fucking awful.

I tried this mission 5 times and all but two times I'd get to I think the last guy? (The part where the game tells you about sticking to shadows) And get spotted.

The first time he just decided to look where I was crouching behind a waist high wall and spot me

The second time I kinda followed him and went to hide behind something when he turned around but i wasn't fast enough

The third time I lost my patience and didn't crouch through the whole area and got spotted by a guard walking around behind one of the waist high walls

The fourth time I tried to backstab a guard and it decided to not kill him

Then the last time I get to the same guy I have trouble with.

As soon as he gets to the far end of the building/hallway I threw a rock in the corner to distract him

I go but don't know how long he'll be distracted so to be safe I try to hide behind a pillar

My fucking character glitches inside of the pillar gets stuck and the guard detects me.

I would have tried again even after that but now when I try to "talk to villager" to start the mission it says my character is wounded and I have no idea how to fix that

This mission single handedly made me delete all my saves and swear off the campaign mode forever.

When I go back I'll just play sandbox mode and not have to deal with the campaign bullshit ever again.