u/NamazSasz

Ich wurde vor ein paar Monaten Opfer sexualisierter Gewalt. Habe die Nummer des Täters nach dem Vorfall direkt blockiert. Nun seit letztem Sonntag kontaktiert er mich wiederholt mit neuen Nummern, 2 Textnachrichten und 1 Anruf (vermutlich, bin nicht rangegangen, werde aber normalerweise nicht von Nummern angerufen, die ich nicht kenne). Ich blockiere immer die Nummer direkt.

Der Täter weiß, wo ich wohne. Ich kann ihn schwer einschätzen und nicht sagen, ob er bald bei mir vor der Tür steht, wenn er anders nicht weiter kommt. Er hat allerdings sowohl durch den Übergriff als auch die telefonischen Kontaktversuche gezeigt, dass er Grenzen offensichtlich nicht respektiert und gewalttätig ist, deswegen ist ihm eigtl alles zuzutrauen.

Meine Frage: würde es Sinn machen, das jetzt schon bei der Polizei zu melden, bevor er tatsächlich zu mir nach Hause kommt? Oder ist das egal, ob ich jetzt schon was melde oder dann erst, falls es soweit kommt?

Zweite (eigentliche) Frage: wenn ich das alles bei der Polizei melde (samt dem Übergriff, denn allein die paar Kontaktversuche erscheinen mir ohne Kontext lächerlich), wird dann automatisch irgendwas in Gang gesetzt? Ich bin derzeit nicht bereit, Anzeige zu erstatten. Ich möchte mit diesem Mann nie wieder zu tun haben, möchte einfach meine Ruhe und versuchen, das Geschehene zu verarbeiten.

Heute hatte ich einen ganz okayen Tag, nachdem die letzten Wochen wirklich schrecklich waren, u.a. vor 3 Wochen unfreiwilliger Aufenthalt kn der geschlossenen Psychiatrie.
Jedenfalls heute war es seit Langem mal wieder okay, ich war einigermaßen ruhig. Dann ist nachmittags seine Nachricht aufgeploppt. Mir wurde so übel als ich den Text gelesen habe und alles kam wieder zurück. Ich möchte das nicht mehr. Ich denke da hilft wahrscheinlich nur Nummer wechseln, falls das so weiter geht. Vielleicht hat ers jetzt aber auch nach dem dritten Mal blockieren gecheckt, ich weiß es nicht. Wird sich zeigen, will einfach nur meinen Frieden wieder finden.

I sent weekly/basic member passes (srry I don’t know the actual english term for it) as a gift to two of my friends. One an in-game friend and the other one my mother. Both play daily. Didn‘t get a thank you from any of them so I wonder how/if they have been notified that they a) even got the gift and b) it was from me? Of course I could just ask them but I don‘t really want to ask for a „thank you“…

I don‘t expect anyone will understand this crazy behavior but I‘m truly at a loss rn and really need some advice.

My ex partner broke up with me almost a week ago. I didn‘t manage to go no contact and kept trying to change his mind and take me back. I begged him via text and in person even. I went on my knees for him. Embarassing, I know.
However he changed his wording from „I can‘t do this anymore“ to „I can‘t do this right now“ and this was enough to give me hope.

Today I messaged him again and he replied. During our conversation it became clear to me that there was really no hope left but I still could not stop trying because I love him so much and in my mind we are meant to be together. I told him he needs to block me everywhere otherwise I won‘t stop. He ignored this and kept replying to me until he suddenly stopped. This triggered me so much and I spam texted him and tried to call him over and over again. I was in such agony and I now started begging him not to take me back but to block me to put an end to all of this. After 2 hours re finally answered. He said he took a bath and asked me why I spam texted him and said he is not in the mood to talk to me on the phone. And that was all he had to say!!! He still did not block me. I went through hell for two hours, I sh for the first time in months just to stop myself from texting and calling for a few moments, I thought about going to the psych ward. I can‘t believe why he is doing this to me. He broke up with me because my bpd was too much for him and he said he is not strong enough but he still doesn‘t take me seriously. I‘m beginning to hate him truly but I also start to understand that he is not strong enough for real. I know I have lots of problems but I would never behave this with someone who doesn‘t trigger me. When we are in the middle of an argument don‘t just go taking a bath for two hours, just tell me you are not able to reply for the next hours, it literally takes two seconds. And when I tell you I‘m in agony and don‘t have my symptoms under control please help me and cut off contact completely. You know I can‘t do it and I know it, why are you keeping me in this pain.

I really really don‘t know what to do. I had already deleted his number and chat yesterday but I was still able to text him again today. I turn off my phone several times a day in order to take my mind off of it but I just turn it on again because I can‘t deal with the possibility of missing one of his texts. I try to distract myself with work, videogames, going for walks, cleaning and a lot more but as soon as I have a little time to think my thoughts go back to him and I can‘t help myself and text him again. Do I have to destroy my phone? Then I will send him emails. And I can‘t go offline completely, I‘m working on my laptop all day and need to be online to talk to my colleagues and for the meetings.

Sorry for the long post, I need to find a solution. This is so exhausting.

Edit: we weren‘t really in an argument. I tried to convince him to get back together and he explained me over and over again why he can‘t do this at the moment.