I texted her yesterday, telling her we got very bad news about nephew. Still hasn’t responded but has been posting Instagram stories.
I think I’m done. What is the point?
I got pregnant with a guy I only knew for 6 months. I haven’t finished school even though I’m 29. I do not like the father of my child but I feel trapped with him. He’s not a bad person necessarily, but something is off about him. He’s extremely codependent. He fake cried for sex.
My sister passed away a few years ago. Even though my life has changed at a rapid rate since then, I’m still sad. I feel a lot of guilt. I went to visit my mom around Christmas and I didn’t realize she had everything from my sister’s apartment set up in a room. The only spare room. I hadn’t seen any of it since the day she passed. I was sad and crying and my boyfriend hugged me and then tried to have sex with me. He is a 32 year old man and I’m unsure how to interpret this behavior at this point.
I constantly have a feeling of impending doom.
I smoke weed and vape. I’ve cut down on vaping a lot but I still vape. I have adhd, ocd, and bipolar 2 (diagnosed by a psychiatrist) and I haven’t medicated any of it. I’ve really been struggling to quit because I’m home all day with my son. I know I need to do better for him.
There’s been a lot of added anxiety since one of my nephews, from my half sister, was diagnosed with a rare form of brain cancer. My other nephew, from a different half sister that I’ve never met before, has a son that I’m being asked to adopt. With the current state of my life, I’m realizing I’m going to have to say no and hope he doesn’t spend his life in foster care the way my sisters and I did. Such a sad cycle to repeat.
I know everything that I need to do to get out of this situation. Finish school, go to therapy, find a job, find childcare, leave my horrible boyfriend. But it’s all easier said than done. I feel tired, alone, overwhelmed, and trapped. If I had parents, I genuinely wonder what they would say, I don’t feel good about my life at all
Pink is 0.45 carats. Blue is 1.05. Green is 1.13. The blue one has been heat treated. What do you think?