I (23M) was touched while I was asleep
Hi, I wanted to share my story with you, because I don’t know what to do, what to think. To be honest, I would like to know your view on that situation, I hope I will feel better when I talk to someone, even online.. sorry for my english in advance.
Yesterday I was visiting my close F friend and his husband at their home. We know each other for almost 3 years, but we „clicked” since the first conversation. Her husband is a nice man, at least I thouht so. We (are, were? Sorry I don’t even know how to express that) getting along really well, and I loved that he was so nice to his wife’s best friend. I was really excited, because we didn’t see each other for almost a year. They live pretty far, so we decided that I will be staying for some time. It was fun, we were chatting, went for a walk, did some fun stuff together. During the day and the evening, I and husband were drinking alcohol. Not really much, but from time to time, and we ended a little drunk at the end of the day. We decided, that me and husband will sleep in the living room, and my F friend alone, because they have a baby in their room and we (he?) didn’t want him to sleep in the same room. We went to sleep, and I had trouble falling asleep that night, it takes me some time. So I was lying in bed with my eyes closed, breathing slowly hoping for falling asleep fast. He thought that I was asleep, and he started to touch me in my private area. In the beginning I thought that maybe he’s half asleep, or he’s sleeping. I was a bit scared, I didn’t know what to do. I thought that he will move his hand back in a moment, I decided to not make an argument in the middle of the night. But it got worse, I don’t know if I want to talk about the details, but I think it’s not necessary there. I was paralised, and pretending to be asleep…. and thinking about what to do to stop him, by not letting him know that I’m awake. Yes I know, I should just get up and confront him, but I ended thinking. I was scared that he will reverse it against me, that I started it. That I will be the bad guy, since they know each other for years, and I know her for 3. I didn’t believe that she will Trust me over her beloved husband. In the worse scenario, that their marriage will fall apart, and her life will fall apart, since she has nowwhere to go, and noone to help her. Or it will get worse, I don’t know… My F friend had a though life, and it get really better when they got married. They love each other, show affection, and that love is just spreading out of them. I feel bad about it, like I could do more to stop it, but then I feel that it would cause me more problems… i don’t know what to do, or if I should do anything at all… i have a gf, and we love each other. I feel like I betrayed her, and she will leave me if I tell her. I feel bad about everything what happened or could happen. Don’t be harsh on me