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انا توي متزوجة من ٤شهور واهلي عايشين في مدينة ثانية،زوجي مرتبط بالعمل بس لما طلبت منه ازوج اهلي جاء معي وصلني واخذنا ابوي من المطار وزوجي جلس ليلة ورجع علشان العمل
بعد اسبوع حجز رحلة في الويكند بيجي ياخذني ونرجع رحلة سوا،انا استغربت لان اخوي عادي زوجته تروح لحالها واختي كع زوجها نفس الشيء وهذا دليل على ثقتهم الكبيرة في بعض،ما اعرف ليش تحسست شوي بس ما بينت ابدا الموضوع مرة ما يستاهل بس استغربت شوي.
ابغى اقراء اراء مختلفة عن الموضوع هل فيه ناس كذا عادي وماله علاقة بعدم الثقة ؟

I (24F) did something today that is completely out of character for me, and I’m struggling to cope with the guilt and shame. I’ve always been a law-abiding, "good girl" type, but for some reason, I had a momentary lapse in judgment and tried to shoplift from a supermarket.
I got caught. It was chaotic and incredibly humiliating. The cashier pointed at me, and a woman (security/staff) actually grabbed me. I felt like the world was collapsing. My older brother was with me, and he saw the whole scene. To save face and avoid a total scandal at home, I ended up paying for the items (it was a large amount) and told my family that I accidentally broke some expensive honey jars and was forced to pay for them.
My brother is very suspicious and told my mom he thinks I stole, but I’m doubling down on the "broken honey" story. I feel physically sick literally nauseous and I can’t stop replaying the moment the cashier pointed at me in my head.
I don't know why I did it. I feel like a stranger to myself right now. I’m 24, I should know better. I’m terrified that my family will find out the truth, but mostly, I’m just disgusted with myself. I paid for the items and they let me go without taking my info, so legally it’s over, but mentally, I’m a wreck.
How do I stop this self loathing? Has anyone else ever had a moment where they did something so unlike them that they felt like they didn't recognize themselves anymore?
Also I feel so ashamed even though I didn’t admit to my family but I don’t know how to look in the my brother eyes It’s such weird feeling

I (24F) did something today that is completely out of character for me, and I’m struggling to cope with the guilt and shame. I’ve always been a law-abiding, "good girl" type, but for some reason, I had a momentary lapse in judgment and tried to shoplift from a supermarket.
I got caught. It was chaotic and incredibly humiliating. The cashier pointed at me, and a woman (security/staff) actually grabbed me. I felt like the world was collapsing. My older brother was with me, and he saw the whole scene. To save face and avoid a total scandal at home, I ended up paying for the items (it was a large amount) and told my family that I accidentally broke some expensive honey jars and was forced to pay for them.
My brother is very suspicious and told my mom he thinks I stole, but I’m doubling down on the "broken honey" story. I feel physically sick literally nauseous and I can’t stop replaying the moment the cashier pointed at me in my head.
I don't know why I did it. I feel like a stranger to myself right now. I’m 24, I should know better. I’m terrified that my family will find out the truth, but mostly, I’m just disgusted with myself. I paid for the items and they let me go without taking my info, so legally it’s over, but mentally, I’m a wreck.
How do I stop this self loathing? Has anyone else ever had a moment where they did something so unlike them that they felt like they didn't recognize themselves anymore?
Also I feel so ashamed even though I didn’t admit to my family but I don’t know how to look in the my brother eyes It’s such weird feeling