u/NearbyIron5582

Just when I finally feel like I'm starting to get over you and enjoy my life without you in it I begin to get pulled back in. One day I'm okay and the next not so much. Yesterday I finally accepted not having you around in my life and this morning I woke up with you heavily on my mind. I'm not replaying any memories of us, I am just simply missing you. I hate the fact that I'm still so into you. I hate the way that things ended. I feel like there was more that was left unsaid and neither one of us was brave enough to say it. I saw the sadness in your eyes but did you see the sadness in mine?! Did you know that it was the hardest thing for me watching you walk away. I just stood there hoping that you would change your mind and return back to me but you walked away and you didn't even look back. Did you even wonder what I was feeling? Did you care? I hate that my mind keeps looping back to that day when you walked away from me. I hate that I still can't get over you. I hate that I take a step forward away from you and then take 2 steps back towards you. I want to move on and I want to be happy and I want to finally be at peace knowing that both you and I will be okay. I miss you but I need to move on.

Is it too late you ask me?! Yeah it possibly is a little too late. I want to move on but you don't let me. You walking away was probably one of the most painful things to watch. You left me standing there all alone while you turned around and walked and you didn't even turn back to look at me. You left me all alone sad and confused and in my own thoughts and feelings?! You didn't even care if you broke my heart you just continued on with yourself. I have shown myself to you for far too long. I gave you so much when you gave me nothing and maybe that's my fault for trying so hard. I only tried because I thought you felt the same way about me. But it's okay because I'm fine now and I'm choosing to move on and you should too. I'm done wasting my energy and my thoughts on you. I deserve to be happy and at peace! I don't want you to consume me any second longer. So goodbye, I wish you well!

Why am I being tortured? Why are you still constantly on my mind?! I'm begging GOD to let me forget you and move on! I can't continue to live happily if you are still haunting me in my dreams and you consume my thoughts every hour and every minute of the day! You chose to walk away and now I'm choosing to walk away from you. Will I ever return if you asked me to? I'm not sure honestly I kind of want to know what living life is without you. I want to be given a chance to want to explore and meet other people because honestly I didn't deserve the way you treated me sometimes. I want to move on but I can't because you are constantly on my mind even if I'm distracted. Thoughts of you and memories keep replaying in my head and maybe I just need more time to get over you but GOD I just can't wait until I do. I'm ready to move on and you should to.

I can't get you off my mind. Everytime I try to forget you, my mind doesn't let me. I close my eyes and I see your face, I wake up and I see your face, everything I do I see you. I want us to be together and sometimes I feel like you do too. I know we are both scared, scared of being rejected, scared of the unknown, scared of judgment. But, this love that I feel for you... is a love that only comes once in a lifetime. And if I don't choose you I know that everyone else that will come after will never truly make me feel the way I feel with you.