u/NeatDust1927

Every day I feel so different than the one before. One day I feel like the most fem person in the world. Than the other (TODAY) I feel like I am just kidding myself. Like I'm just doing this to escape my current self. I'm worried I dont pass. I know being trans is not about passing but to me its important that I do pass. I dont want people to see me as a "guy". I hate how the world views trans women and I just want to feel beutiful and be seen that way. Any advice? Thanks.

Why do I have to keep going? I feel like if there was a button to not exist I would press it. I feel like I am only existing so that other people don't have to feel sad. (not that I have anyone who would). So why, whats the point anymore?

I absolutely hate my life. I have nobody who ever texts me first. I was raised in a motel and still live in one at 19. I had a gf for a year and a half. I was in love and thought she was the one. But due to a combination of my own mistakes and my current situation she left me for someone she might while dating me. At the beginning of this year, I got into a car accident a day before I was supposed to leave for college. I couldnt make friends because I joined college during the spring semester and would go to PT at the end of the day 3 times a week. I only have my elderly mom and she doesnt understand me despite loving me and wanting to help. I have no car or ability to go anywhere. I honestly just hate my life. I don't know if I can keep going like this anymore... life has just been too much for me to handle. I am utterly alone with nobody. This is me begging to know there's other real people in this world.

I wish you all the best.

I absolutely hate my life. I have nobody who ever texts me first. I was raised in a motel and still live in one at 19. I had a gf for a year and a half. I was in love and thought she was the one. But due to a combination of my own mistakes and my current situation she left me for someone she might while dating me. At the beginning of this year, I got into a car accident a day before I was supposed to leave for college. I couldnt make friends because I joined college during the spring semester and would go to PT at the end of the day 3 times a week. I only have my elderly mom and she doesnt understand me despite loving me and wanting to help. I have no car or ability to go anywhere. I honestly just hate my life. I don't know if I can keep going like this anymore... life has just been too much for me to handle. I am utterly alone with nobody. This is me begging to know there's other real people in this world.

I wish you all the best.