u/Night_And_CityLight

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I have the market scenes from indian Markets.. I have the Office scenes from a office. I have the Hospital scenes filmed... But i need a Certain Shock Value with Gender stereotypes broken.. Hence why i chose such. A Male Nurse, A Female Butcher... They're all Unusual. Its something people would watch rather than think of something that is another Boring Independently made film.

Her Job is at Stake because her Coworkers are Bearing false witness. They complained to the principal and the principal wishes to support these Perpetrators. Please Pray that My Mom Does not get Fired🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏. Please i beg you to pray that my Mom Can Keep her Job.. She's the only working member

Pray for Christopher.

Pray for Christopher.

Pray for Christopher.

Currently i feel Confused of whether i should or shouldnt do something..... But let me tell you what led upto this conclusion (Spoiler... I wanted to vanish this life because i don't want to give the future generation an Iota of His DNA)

Starting from my Teens was when i realized it...

I now feel disgusted about Myself... My Father was a Horrible person.. He also didn't have an Ounce of Masculinity in him, spent time with other women and watching Corn and was an ABSENT FATHER. That being said... I was the De-facto man of the house, neither did he contribute one Penny for the household, but he would bully up people weaker or subordinate to him. He also lied to my mother and Married her. An Absolute Immature Abusive "Man-Child". As a Child I always wondered why he was an Absent dad and Never took responsibility. Later it dawned on me as well that

He was the Prime Textbook example of a Narcissistic Cuck.

I love my mother, she behaved like a Man and was the Mother and Father in my Putrid stinking Life. That even her Womanhood was sacrificed to be the sole breadearner. She went through a lot. Whenever there was someone being Mean to mom.. My Father was an Absolute Cuck who never

My Mum worked extra hours just to run our Family and make ends meet.

I feel $uicidal because i don't want an Iota of my Paternal blood and DNA... In my Veins. He was a Monster to say the least. Please help me with Advice. I get Angry Frequently and i can't control my Anger. I also Don't want any future generations to have His Traits. So i wanna remove myself from the Gene Pool. Please help me. At the same time i have an Approach-Approach mental Conflict created in my mind.

Option A says "Kys💀"

Option B says "You gotta live this Painful life because Mum needs you".

The aforementioned fact is the Dilemma precisely

Additionally i also am Anhedonic.. I can't feel pleasure anymore... Because Pleasure disgusts me. The things that once made me Happy can no longer really make me happy. Even Learning and Mastering new Skills Just Occupies me... But dosent make me happy.

I have basically Lost my "Happiness and my very Essence". Coupled that with a Few Breakups because i see a Fragment of the Monster that he was in me. I really really really wanna change that. Please help me with advice. The opportunity to just Vanish from this world is very tempting. At the same time the only thing Keeping me Willing to Not Vanish from this Planet is My Mother who is now Ailing. Gosh how do i not be a disappointment... This is Painful. Every day i think of how i don't want to become like him.. A Fucking monster