I dont get why I cant just be normal, I genuinely feel disgusted at myself because of my sexuality and I have to deal with the fact that I would lose most of my friends if I come out and I most likely will never get to experience teenage love. I would genuinely do anything to be straight and I dont get why I have to be this way.
Radqueers genuinely piss me off bc fym they want to expand lgbtq to include pedophiles, necrophiles, and zoophiles just to name a few and they think its valid to change your race. If you are a radqueer or support them js know you are pos and a weirdo for that.
Every time I look at myself in the mirror, I just analyze how ugly I am and i get disgusted by how I look. I just want to be loved and respected but no matter what I do i never get more attractive. The way I look is one of the many reasons why i want to commit in the next few years and i would seriously do anything to be attractive.