u/No-Maximum522

i don't know if i'll be banned for this, but its a genuine question and i'm unsure where else to ask.
i've been learning swedish on and off for the past few years, and as a gay man i'm curious about this word and how/if its used in queer communities in sweden and swedish-speaking places.
to get to the point, has the word b*gjävel (censored just to be safe) been reclaimed among gay communities, or is it still considered highly offensive? i'm aware the word "bög" has been reclaimed, but i don't know if i can use and reclaim "b*gjävel"
for context, i exclusively want to use it to refer to myself, as i jokingly call myself a ((f-slur)) in english.
thank you in advance for any help given. and if this is immediately deleted, i apologize to the mods if this is off-topic or too offensive for this sub.

it was a puzzle game from the 90s or early 2000s, it had a grid that you snapped chunky plastic cobblestone pieces into, and you rolled a colorful bouncy ball through it to get the ball from point a to point b. (but i'm not too sure about the bouncy ball part, it could've been pawns.) i think it also had something to do with monsters... maybe mythical creatures?
I dont know if anything like that rings a bell, i'm deadset on finding it but my memory of it is so hazy it feels impossible.
sorry if this is off topic for this sub, i almost never use reddit but this is the only place i can think to look.