u/No-Meringue-8089

Yeah, I speak Dutch too, so we can just chat in Dutch if you want. Other than that, it'd be nice to make some friends if you're chill. I don't mind just sitting in silence, but I also enjoy talking to cool people.

I have quite a few hobbies, I guess. Some such as watching anime, fashion, and working out every now and then. Also, a lot of people who make posts don't even have their dms open anyway, so that's kind of pointless.

- debated wether I should kms to avoid dealing with this heat

(haven't had depression/depressive thoughts for a year)

- contemplated turning my life in for Jesus?

(I am 100% atheist)

- searching for houses to buy back HOME

(Literally hate that place though, as I have gone twice already, and definitely seen enough!)

- major anxiety

(been doing great this year mind you done everything someone without would do, even moved out)

ummm not going great guyss

Yeah so you guys know how our community is. My younger cousin does trust me already, and we have a pretty good relationship. I make sure to tell him (and his little sister too) that I love them no matter what and that I'm always here if they need someone to talk to (their parents pretty much abandoned them). Because of that, I feel like he'd probably tell me if he ever wanted to talk about something personal, but I'm pretty sure he's in the closet.

All his friends are other mostly (ajnabi) gay kids and they're predominantly involved in lgbt fandoms, so i'm just like hmmm, you sure you're not gay?

And thinking back about my life, I feel like if I had someone in my life the way i'm like for him, i'd probably have felt much better about expressing myself :/

How can I, if he ever decides to come out/open up, let him know that he can tell me (ally, possibly bi but still closeted too) about it?

Subtle ways pls (I don't feel like outing myself! And I'm pretty much straight passing)

I can't even hide my opinions or my atheism. I'm too honest. I complain to my hooyo about everything she put me through, and I tell my siblings, not to worry so much about eating halal food. Just eat it. Who cares. I honestly can't hide that I don't fast or pray. I just say I don't and idgaf. Like what are you going to do? Talk shit about me? Well, you're already talking shit, so a little more can't hurt. I remind my hooyo all the time that I'm not taking care of her when she's old. Since she's popped out these kids, they might as well go take care of her. If she hadn't abused me, I probably would've. Now they're trying to win me back because, I'm the prize duh. My hooyo is buying me gifts now so I can forgive her, meanwhile I'm talking shit about her to her face lmao. Nobody is hearing the end of this shit. Ever.

Then my useless ass dad keeps leaving me voice notes which, unless it's about his deathbed, I'm not opening any. Wallahi, I could not care less. Don't hmu unless it's important. I've ghosted him for two years and I'm doing better than I was before. I'm not depressed anymore (Wonder how that is...). I've moved out at 18, I'm handling my own, and I'm doing good at uni. I've got 20k saved just in case. I think that's what bothers them, they're losing me. I don't need them. Which is also what I use it to push them down even further. They spent years making me feel small, bitch have a taste of your own medicine

I still want to be able to explain myself more... civilised. I don’t think this negativity they've brought me, really fits me. I want to speak better, buttt I don’t always know how to voice my thoughts without them coming out sharper than I mean! any tips?

Happy 2 year atheist anniversary to me! 🎉🎉

I’m 22 and a 10 year old kid or maybe younger called me “abti” today. Omg that shit feels so dehumanizing and I can’t imagine how worse it will get when I bald. I am so sorry to whoever I called “unc” this shit ruined my entire day. It’s been replaying in my head all day. I can’t Imagine how life would be when I’m 30 or 40 and bald. I didn’t even feel like a human after that experience today.

I'll be on regular dating apps with pics of me in full hijab too. 😂😂 Tbh, it's a bunch of different ethnicities swiping right, but it's mainly Chinese, Korean, East Asian guys trying to hmu in general. Ts is so funny. They genuinely do not gaf