u/No-Relationship1871

A week or two ago I had a really weird experience, I was just relaxing watching TV &felt like some sort of wave come over me & voices began in my head, not like evil voices or anything like that. It was more like spiralling thoughts one after another at high speed, this lasted about 5 mins. It was like my inner monologue having a debate with itself but it was so intense and fast, I can't remember the first thought, but the debate spiralled into me thinking I've got brain damage & there's something wrong with my head & then thinking suicide was the only way out and that it would never stop, I just lay there with my head in my hands thinking my head was going to explode. It was like my mind was saying "shit what's going on" then my mind would also counter attack & be like "no nothing to worry about" like a crazy kaleidoscope of thoughts. Since this episode I feel like it's happened a handful of times but not to the same intensity as the first time. I managed to breathe through it and remain kind of calm but it's worrying. I'm finding myself thinking about it happening more and more often and feel like I'm now on the brink of triggering it to happen again. Just curious if anybody knows what this is or has had it happen to them too. Tia.