u/NoAmount6023

I'm sure there's plenty of people out there who understand this, but I'm having trouble right now.

I have had a great relationship with my parents for my whole life, up until I came out as trans. They provided for me in every way and made sure that I was always taken care of, physically, emotionally, financially, etc. I am very grateful to have parents like them, except for the fact that they do not accept that I'm trans.

I don't live with my parents. I officially moved out while still in college because I was afraid I could not transition in their house. I was right. They refuse to even try using my new name and pronouns. They will not accept that I'm transitioning medically. I've heard basically all the "we love you but xyz" stuff that is typical of parents who are not violently transphobic, but still very much not accepting.

Everyone else in my life has been amazing since I've come out, and I'm very lucky for that. But it's been hard to come to terms with the fact that my once good relationship with my parents has fundamentally changed for the worse. I also feel some level of guilt, because I obviously don't want to visit them or talk to them as much because I'm going to get deadnamed, she/her-ed, etc. My mom recently asked me why I'm not visiting as much, but I feel like it should be pretty obvious. I can be myself when I'm at home, but not when I'm visiting them.

Treating me this way is eventually going to lead to a breaking point, and they are going to start looking crazy using the wrong name and pronouns as I progressively change on testosterone. My parents are seeing some therapist to work out their feelings related to me being trans, but I have a feeling the therapist is not encouraging them to respect my identity. Genuinely, how do I rationalize this? I know their disrespect towards me is not acceptable, but they are still my parents and the only family I have.

I just started bupropion XL 150mg. I was previously on sertraline for depression but my depression manifests as lack of motivation, extreme fatigue, brain fog, over eating, and non-existent libido, so sertraline was not the best. I would say it made me feel less doomed, but I was still tired all of the time and gained a ton of weight. I'm now trying bupropion because it is supposed to have opposite effects, but I am concerned about some of the possible side effects. I am already prone to headaches and I know that is a common one. Also the increased heart rate. I will obviously discuss any side effects I have with my psychiatrist, but I'm wondering for people who have tried bupropion if side effects lessened at any point. Essentially, if I have those effects, is it worth toughing it out for a bit to see if it gets better?

I want to top, my partner wants me to top, but I feel very awkward about it. Does anyone have any advice on how to get over the awkwardness? My partner is very good about communicating what he wants, so the issue is solely with me feeling weird. I think it's a combination of just being new to it and then also dysphoria over the fact that I have to use a prosthetic to be able to top.

Okay this could totally just be a random fluke and not actually mean anything significant, but I'm wondering if anyone knows anything about this or has had a similar experience.

I changed my name several months ago. Once I got my court orders, I made an appointment with social security, gave them my documents, and they changed my name in their system and ordered a new card for me. I went away on a two week trip and asked my partner to let me know when the new card showed up, but it never did. I thought it might be because of the partial shutdown that is affecting various government agencies, so I gave it a bit more time before calling. Eventually I reached out to my local office, and they told me that my card was "suppressed", and would not really explain exactly what that meant. Basically, it was ordered by my local office but the main social security office refused to send it. They had no idea why. BUT my name change was processed in their system and I was luckily able to get a new driver's license without the card. The only solution the social security person had for me was attempt to order a replacement myself online or come in for a new appointment, but they are booked out for months at every office near me. I tried to order a new one online but am having issues with the identity verification service they use, likely because my name change is still fresh. So I will probably have to wait months to get a new card, and I can't even be sure it will show up this time. The person I talked to asked me if I "really need the card". Like, yes??? I want to have proper documentation for myself. I'm just glad I was able to get my new driver's license, because that has allowed me to update most other things I need to so far.