u/No_Bullfrog163

This whole weekend really. The fireworks are awful. The stalkers are going hard this weekend, finding every nook and cranny on the internet I go to. Watching me shower (Edit: there are cameras in there, I cant find them) . I really hope they stop some day. I get how it sounds. But every time they engage the more I am sure its real. I am getting help. I only have meds for anxiety right now, which help a little. I don't know if that will change. I am not diagnosed with anything but anxiety and depression. No one believes this stuff is happening. I just wanted to vent a little, its really lonely.

I'm probably just making connections right? Like someone wouldn't use their trauma story to take a shot at me right? That would be kinda silly. And I'm probably just being triggered and then it's worming it's way into my delusions?

Is this a Psychosis thing or an OCD thing? Or can be both? My account is to new to post there and ask. I do have bouts of psychosis if that information is helpful.

I don't wan't to. I am nervous I will have to talk to a bunch of people. I need to do it for lots of reasons. But I don't want to share personal stuff with a ton of strangers. The only Idea I have in my brain though is like a school setting of everyone reading in a circle and being forced to participate a cretin way.

Is group therapy similar? Can I just listen? Do I have to talk? Will they force me? If thats the deal I maybe find another solution.

Part of the reason my therapist and I decided to do this (its a partial hospitalization program) is so I have a schedule and go out and have to be around people. But thats already a big step. I don't want to talk to them. I know that sounds rude, its not about them, its just anxiety stuff. This is the most ish appropriate sub I can think to post this, because you guys understand the social issues and anxieties.