u/No_Car_3653

Going on 2 weeks of a new Streak now since my original of 150, a person from my past showed up today randomly this morning .. normally I’d say coincidence, but the person is too strong of a connection to me to be just that. We exchanged numbers but I’m taking extreme caution treading back into that. Also remember if you have fallen and broken a long streak in a moment of weakness , your second streak will be extremely challenging and will throw you curveballs 3x worse than your first time. The benefits will start sooner , but the Symptoms start right away!!! If you know, you know. If you don’t know what I’m referring to I envy you.

For some background I’ve gone 150 days of semen retention.. I’m 23, Mexican 6’1 I’m painting the picture for you guys, I can’t help it I love detailing my paragraphs. I’ve always gotten girls, I’ve always been charismatic, and I have zero doubt I was born to have an impeccable aura, but behind the curtains pornography was my enemy. Since I was 11 to be exact… it killed my testosterone as a kid and up and till now as a young adult, made me super hyper sexual and I masked my insecurities behind pride and selfishness. That journey of 160 days started last year in March and ended on July 28 of last year .. during that journey I would say “damn I ain’t ever going back to how I used to be” till I relapsed with a girl , A GIRL I DID EVERYTHING TO AVOID BY THE WAY.. I started a job and knew the second I saw her she’d fall for me or I’d fall for her someway (hence how strong the law of attraction is on SR you really gotta be careful what you think about and what you desire when on a long streak) anyways as much as a I ran I gave into her eventually little did I know that would lead me to relapse all sorts of ways even started watching porn.. even started going onto video chat apps to mutually masturbate with whatever girl I could pick up on the night (sometimes I paid) and I did it all because my bipolar ass couldn’t fathom what I did .. this practice made me so spiritual and weird in the best way possible that I became REPULSIVE TO MYSELF when I relapsed that I wanted to literally just keep giving into my urges… I had a crazy good gym body ( I started eating shitty) I would go to bed early and wake up early (started procrastinating when it came to bed) I used to walk into a room and steal the show (now I felt when I walked into a room everybody hated me) used to feel God next to me everywhere I went (I knew he was still with me but he distanced himself … I could feel it ) and I only have me to blame for all this .. I got out of a sunken place recently praise God and I’m on day 11 today!!! …. FOR MONTHS I COULD BARELY MAKE IT TO DAY 3 again!!!!!!!! I just got done working out etc and I’m about to start a great paying job … hopefully I keep my head straight this time .. this practice can make you go insane , it happened to me one thing I learned don’t count the days!! Don’t make about the nut itself , don’t worry about who likes you and who doesn’t , take it day by day… love yourself, be the man you want others to remember you by… sorry I needed to rant to you guys, just know I’m back on the path.

I understand if I’m downvoted for this, but I see a lot of players when it comes to getting rid of heat in gta completely drop the ball .. for example let’s say we’re doing heist preps , and it requires you to deliver a vehicle to said location.. does anybody drive down the road call in an oppressor or a sparrow and fly high and away lose the cops and come back down steal the same car and drive with no worries of cops to location ? Even well known gta YouTubers when making guides to heists or missions that involve losing heat they do it the hard way and even sometimes verbally express how “annoying” it is having to escape the cops in these slow vehicles .. is this efficient tip not common in the community ? Cus no way bro….

Anybody on Xbox One down to just straight grind till the DLC comes out ? I have no friends on previous gen anymore lol I’m tryna run the casino heist like crazy

Yoooo anybody on Xbox One tryna grind casino heist??? I’m so serious let’s make money. I’m lvl 310 if that matters. Comment down below

Guys lowkey don’t got any friends on Xbox1 anymore.. that’s what I play on .. can we grind the casino heist together ??? I’m lvl 310 I’m a chill player just tryna take advantage of the week. Anybody on Xbox One drop your tags if your down to run it all week

Right now I’m trying to maximize this weeks grind because it has great potential, im actually taking a break from Cayo. Right now I’m boosting acid lab and bunker , and during cool downs from pay phone hits I’m running security contracts and madrazo hits and ammunition deliveries and obviously my acid lab sells and single vehicle bunker sell missions as well.. although maybe I should start with a quick Cayo and during the cool downs resume the grind.. but idk.. is there other things I could include ? What’s your way of grinding this week around the payphon hits ?

I know , I know… you’re probably thinking what an idiot, but I’d like to hear from my fellow community.. I’ve been practicing semen retention for a little over a year , I’ve done about 256 days out of the year really .. and what I’ve learned is it’s not easy. I broke my streak on the 25th reasoning being it wasn’t a clean 100 days.. there was days I’d be out with women and we’d make out and I’d get so horny I’d basically leak precum and get blue balls from teasing myself with this girl.. I wouldn’t have sex or nothing , and having done so many times .. I figured it’s not a PURE 100 days where the nut would be a healthy nut, so I gave in with this girl and restarted and now on day 6 again.. I’m ashamed of myself having justified such atrocities .. but in a way I feel better because this time around it’ll be pure no touching, no viewing harmful material, no interactions with women to the point I’m doing everything but penetration.. I was deceived. My last 156 day streak before this one was a PURE ONE till one night I fell to a woman. AGAIN SHAME ON ME. But I got this brothers the benefits are real but my point is YOU DONT GET THEM IF YOUR LYING TO YOURSELF AND NOT BEING PURE MINDED ASWELL with your intentions and actions.