I stop playing games with people almost 10 years ago now and I haven’t spoken on mic either because of toxic people. But is there anyone preferable lgbt that could help. I don’t want to play games alone for another 10 years. I feel I deserve a social life too.
I’m 29 I grew up in care homes from 2 months old and I was adopted at 12 where I let them know my sexuality and because they are Jamaican the family wanted nothing to do me with so I just speak to my adopted mum and never had a relationship with them. I struggle forming friendships, I have hundreds of un replied messages and I’ve never had a relationship. I’ve been playing games alone for 16 years now and I even freaking talk to myself. I want to join Xbox looking for posts but get scared as I’m on the slight fem side and I’ve just never been myself around anyone. Like I don’t want to play Dbd and rivals or whatever alone, I feel I have so much love to give and care and time for people and now it’s just me and my rabbit and I’m going to be 30 and I can’t help but wonder well what is the point? Can I handle another 10 20 years In my own company, how much isolation is too much because I just seem to question everything know. I don’t know if I’ve explained myself well