u/No_Wait_5383

السلام عليكم
انا بعاني من الوسواس القهري في امور كتير في الدين بس من شهرين كنت بقرا فتاوي علي النت لامر معين بالصدفة قريت فتوي بتتكمل عن مشاهدة الافلام الي فيها خيال زي الهة وكده
من ساعتها وعقلي اكنه كان مستني بس الفكرة دي عشان يمسكها
وبقال شهرين عقلي عمال يصعد الامور لحد ما انا دلوقتي مش قادر افتح اي فيلم عربي او اجنبي او العب لعبة لان عقلي لقي سبب لي كل ده يخليني احس اني هكفر لو عملته
حتي وانا قاعد مع صحابي ع القهوة ساعات بخاف اضحك علي نكتهم لا تكون في اساءة للدين مع العلم انهم مستحيل يقصدوا يسيؤا للدين وهم عممرهم ما سبو الدين مثلا
بس عقلي فعلا مش سايبني في حالي
حد هنا مر بتجربة مشابهة لي دي وعرف يتعالج منها
وهل لو حد اتعالج ازاي هل راح لي شيخ او راح لي دكتور نفسي
لاني حرفيا مدمر الفترة دي
اي قناة يوتويب او صفحة ع الفيس كانت بتتكلم عن الافلام انا شيلت الاشتراك منها
الموضوع اطور اني بقيت بركز في كل ورقة مرمية ع الارض او لو طلبت اكل وجالي الورقة مكتوب فيها عنوان
ببص ع العنوان ليكون في كلمة الله مثلا وببص ع الورق او وصلات النور و الغاز او قراطيس اللب ليكون في حد اسمه عبد الرحمن او عبد الله وكده
بخاف ادوس ع الورق ده او ارميه فا اكون كفرت عشان اسم الجلالة عليه

كل ده وانا برضو عقلي دايما في شك هل دي وسوسة ولا لا
ولا انا ابحاول اقنع نفسي بي كده عشان احسس نفسي بمعاناة وخلاص
بجانب كل ده عندي مشكلة كبيرة تانية في حياتي ليها علافة بي نوع من انواع الادمان بس معرفش هل اقدر اكلم في الموضوع ده هنا ولا لا

Salam everyone,

I'm a 21 years old and I’m currently on Day 9 of recovering from a severe, 9-year addiction. While dealing with the intense withdrawal, my Religious OCD (Scrupulosity) hit the roof, and now I’m stuck in a non-stop, 24/7 loop of intrusive thoughts about Kufr.

This whole thing started because I was scrolling through fatwas online looking for reassurance. I stumbled upon a fatwa about watching movies that have ancient mythological gods like Zeus. My brain just locked onto that specific idea, and the waswas has been escalating like crazy ever since.

Now, my OCD has generalized this fear to a point where it's ruining my life. I am genuinely terrified of watching any movie or playing any game with fictional or mythological elements, because my mind tells me that just by watching or playing them, I’m becoming a Kafir. I'm also scared to watch any media because I keep worrying a character might say something blasphemous, and if I don't react the "right" way or if I accidentally laugh at a scene, it means I approve of Kufr, even though I completely hate Kufr in my heart.

It even ruined my social life. I’m scared to just joke around or laugh with my friends because my brain twists normal, innocent words into religious fears, making me paranoid that there’s some hidden, unintended mockery of religion in their jokes.

I honestly love gaming, comics, and sci-fi movies, but I’ve forced myself to quit all of them alongside porn, and now my life feels completely empty and miserable. To make things worse, I’m under massive academic pressure studying for my final exams, which wrap up on June 6th.

If anyone has ever been in my shoes or dealt with this brutal mix of withdrawal and severe Religious OCD, please tell me how you survived it. I really need some advice or support right now. Thank you.

Salam everyone,

I am a young brother currently on Day 8 of recovering from a severe, 9-year addiction. While fighting the withdrawal, my Religious OCD (Scrupulosity) has spiked to an unbearable level, and I’m trapped in a 24/7 cycle of intrusive thoughts about Kufr (disbelief).

It all started when I was reading fatwas online to find reassurance. I stumbled upon a fatwa about the ruling on watching movies that feature ancient mythological gods (like Zeus). Since that day, my brain completely locked onto that idea, and the whispers (Waswas) have been escalating non-stop.

Now, my OCD has generalized this fear to a terrifying extent:

1. Fiction/Movies: I am terrified of watching any foreign movie or playing any game that has fictional elements or mentions mythology, believing that just by watching or playing them, I will become a Kafir.
2. Fear of Accidental Blasphemy: I am scared to watch any foreign media because I’m terrified that a character might say a blasphemous word, and if I don't react "correctly" or if I accidentally laugh at a scene, it means I approved of the Kufr—even though in my heart, I utterly hate Kufr.
3. Social Anxiety: It has gotten to the point where I am scared to joke around with my friends or laugh at their jokes. My brain constantly links normal, innocent words to religious fears, making me paranoid that there is some unintended mockery of religion in their words.

I really love gaming, comics, and sci-fi/fiction, but I have forced myself to stop all of it alongside porn, and now my life feels completely empty and miserable. To make things worse, I am under massive pressure preparing for my final exams, which end on June 6th.

If any one was in my situation one day that can help me .

My brothers, I want to talk about the biggest struggle of my life. No one around me understands, and I hope someone here will.

I have been addicted to pornography and masturbation for about six years, and before that, I was addicted to masturbation alone for about three years.

I was also addicted to maladaptive daydreaming while listening to loud music for years. Of course, I am addicted to social media, movies, anime, gaming, and anything that grants me a quick fix of dopamine.

Today, I am on the 7th day of my journey to quit pornography, masturbation, and daydreaming. I am also strictly limiting my social media usage.

However, my biggest problem alongside this is that I am suffering from religious OCD (scrupulosity) regarding disbelief (Kufr).

I have always suffered from OCD related to physical purification (Najasa) and religious doubts, but it used to come and go. This time, however, the thoughts just won't leave. It has reached a point where if I watch a movie, play a game, or listen to a song, I freeze with fear that I might commit Kufr. I constantly worry that one of the characters might have said something blasphemous or mocking, or if the movie depicts supernatural themes like fictional gods.

Right now, I am fighting a double war: fighting addiction and fighting severe OCD. I truly don't know how long I can endure this situation. I feel utterly exhausted, and I don't know if I can complete this recovery journey or not.

I heard that withdrawal symptoms include intense anxiety, fear, and panic. Could these withdrawal emotions be feeding my OCD and making it flare up this aggressively?

Please advise me. If anyone has gone through a similar experience, or can at least describe how your first two weeks of recovery felt, please share.

Thank you all, and I wish you all the best. Your brother in Islam.