u/Normal-Specialist-45

Mam 19 lat i już od dawna chce rozpocząć hrt, w zeszłym roku została polecona mi Pani Marzęda, zrobiłem badania hormonalne za które zapłaciłem ponad 300zł w lutym tego roku i niestety po paru miesiącach próbowania ustalić konsultacji Pani Marzęda już nie odpisała mi (zakładam że ma bardzo dużo klientów więc oczywiście nie winie jej za to) ale bardzo martwi mnie to że badania prawdopodobnie są już przedawnione, aktualnie szukam innego endokrynologa który mógłby mi przypisać receptę i nie mam funduszy żeby znowu wydawać tyle pieniędzy na badania zwłaszcza że po rozpoczęciu testo możliwe że będę musiał je zrobić znowu i nie wiadomo ile będą kosztować te wszystkie wizyty. Nie mam też opinii psychologa ani psychiatry/seksuologa, napisałem do fundacji transfuzja która udziela darmowe konsultacje psychologiczne ale nie wiem czy dostanę tam w ogóle opinię o transpłciowości + ile będę na to czekać i czy to będzie wystarczało jakiemukolwiek endokrynologowi. Bardzo zależy mi na rozpoczęciu hrt jak najszybciej i byłbym wdzięczny jeżeli ktokolwiek ma rekomendacje lekarzy/fundacji, zwłaszcza takich które działają na zasadzie informed consent, lub jakiekolwiek rady dotyczące uzyskania opinii/ rozpoczynania terapii. Z góry dziękuję.

A friend of mine who has commissioned me before to draw tattoos for her has asked if i would be willing to design a logo for her new plumbing company, and she has offered me two options: either she will pay an additional fee for the rights or i will get a % of the money she makes from the company. First of all I'm not even sure how much to charge for a logo, i have designed them before but only in class and usually i price my commissions like halfbody bust colored shaded lineart etc. and secondly I don't know which option to pick, and what would be an acceptable amount to ask as either a payment for the rights or a % share. To give some perspective I'm 19, I usually charge around 100 USD for a fullbody fully shaded with a proper background and all that, I've been selling commissions for like 4 years with pretty good payoff atleast for a teenager and i have a "diploma" in ceramics (i went to a specialized highschool for artists i think it may only be a thing in my country but after you make a big piece in your subject of choice, a large painting or sculpture and defend them in front of the schools council and pass an oral art history exam and a few other things you get a 'diploma' which can sometimes get you a starter job in your field) edit: I also do not want to ask for a crazy price or % since it is a small company I don't think she makes very much and I don't want to cause her to struggle financially, I was thinking no more than 5% or 100USD for the rights? I'm not sure I don't really know anything about shares and stuff.. is it too much or too little?

Ive had DE for 6 years now, I've known my trigger is stress for a while, but how am i supposed to manage something like that? I deal with severe mental illness so extreme stress is something I'm under pretty much every single day, and when something stressful happens in my life it's even worse. It's not like I can stop these things from happening to me. Whether it's failing an exam, having an argument with someone or an item breaking etc. these are things that happen to everyone but for me it all causes an outbreak, and when it does, the outbreak itself stresses me out even more so it becomes a cycle. I know there is literally no way to manage this so am i just supposed to accept that my hands will be painful itchy and swollen all the time forever?

Basically the title, I stopped popping my blisters 2 weeks ago because of constant infections and walking around with open wounds on my hands 24/7 wasn't very comfortable.. now they have gotten bigger than I've seen them be in over a year, they've spread as well, after about one week they actually got a lot smaller and i thought they were absorbing since that's how long it's supposed to take (?) but a few days later they got way worse, when i pop them the blisters usually don't reappear in the exact same spot and usually only come back in the same spot once the wounds have healed

Basically the title, they ordered two colored shaded fullbodies one with a kinda complex background and one fullbody uncolored sketchy lineart piece with one character and one animal, i initially charged 130USD total which is 50USD lower than my usual price for an order like this, after which the client said they will need to eat a couple of ice soups but it can be done, i replied saying to please not go broke over an order and offering to space out the commissions or to make adjustments to make them cheaper, cancel them or do an art trade for one of them, we ended up changing the sketch to a halfbody which lowered the price by 10USD, I asked again if the client definitely wants to do it all at once etc . and they said yes, but I'm still very worried that I'm doing something unethical and I don't want this person to have trouble buying food just to buy art from me, I also feel guilty about my prices being so expensive, should I cancel the order or something?

edit: thank you so much for all the responses i will definitely take some time to consider cancelling and if not i will make sure to get my money upfront♥️♥️♥️

i just finished highschool and found out I failed my math final and I'm completely burnt out and freaking out and I'm not sure if I'm looking for advice or just want to vent/traumadump or someone to talk to, but here it is i guess, parts of this are google translated from my native language so if there are any issues that's why... (TW for sh ed dysphoria substance abuse bullying animal death suicide)

explaining why I'm this exhausted and distressed over such a minor issue: throughout preschool and elemenatry/middle school i was bullied pretty much the whole time and eventually started to sh and became suicidal because of dysphoria and the bullying, in the last couple years before highschool as my home life worsened i experienced a psychotic episode, suicide attempt and developed anorexia, once i got to highschool i still struggled with anorexia but started hanging out with some strange adults and developed an alcohol problem, about a year passed i managed to recover from my ed and my alcohol issue became much less bad but I became very suicidal once again and started using meth to escape, another year passed and my so-called friends from school started talking shit about me behind my back and making everyone in my class hate me apart from 4 of my now close friends(who also experienced this treatment), at this point my situation at home started to improve a lot and I recovered from my meth addiction but was still SHing and going to school became even more difficult than it had been due to my mental issues, classmates' behavior and my childhood dog dying, after almost failing that year due to attendance I was able to get on online learning thanks to my mental issues and finish school but I was still hanging on by a thread the whole time, and now i found out i failed my math final and i have to spend the rest of the summer studying for the retake but I’m so drained after these final exams and finishing my diploma because I worked so hard that I didn't get a full night's sleep for about 3 months and I'm so beaten down after all those years of school, I knew it would be like this, and I thought I’d somehow recharge over the summer, but now that I have to spend the rest of it studying math it's hopeless, after the retake, I’ll probably be in even worse shape than I am now and my mom definitely won't let me recover once summer break ends, she says I have to have a job or be in post-secondary school by December at the latest (but I’m supposed to be looking right now) and before that, I’m supposed to get my driver’s license, put together a whole portfolio for uni, sort out my testosterone(i already found a doctor willing to perscribe me and did the blood tests but I've been waiting for an appointment to be set up since march..), find a psychiatrist and actually go, plus I wanted to try seeing doctors again to figure out why I’ve been in pain almost every day since elementary school and why I’m sick for months at a time every year. I also wanted to find a sexologist to start the name-change process so that i don't have to deal with deadnaming and misgendering when i go to uni, and do all the things I’ve wanted to do for myself but never had time for like altering my clothes and drawing more, since this is my only chance. But none of that is doable for me right now when multiple times a day I cry until I’m a second away from throwing up shaking and can’t take a breath and I can barely manage to eat once a day, drink water, wash myself, and use the toilet let alone get all that other stuff done in 2–3 months. Besides, if by some miracle I did manage it, I’d be so wrecked afterward that I wouldn't be able to go to any job or school anyway. Even if I could go to one of those places, it would just be another environment where I get misgendered and deadnamed every day and it wouldn't take long for that to completely destroy my mental too. On the other hand, my family says I have to go to university in a year ( I have no idea how I’m supposed to pull that off) so if I don't work this year, I’ll never have a way to save money again, since I won't be living with my mom anymore. And just to earn enough for top surgery, I’d have to work full-time for 9-12 months without spending a single penny let alone saving anything extra for the future and uni. I know all this is very pathetic but I'm just a very weak person and I can't deal with anything