u/North_Anteater6376

i'm 19F i got diagnosed last year but i have had symptoms of bipolar 1 since i was 13 my parents were neglectful and never took me to get meds even though i begged they also neglected a spinal injury that has caused my calf to lose feeling and i genuinely feel like theres nothing for my life i can't afford meds and my parents won't help me and they want to me keep working full time while trying to study industrial engineering im literally so behind in class right now and they never taught me to drive and i just feel like my life is just a cycle of despair does it ever get better i want out of this house

for context, I'm the only dishwasher they don't have anybody in the morning. They have me come in from 3 to 10 and when I come in typically they'll be a cart full of dishes plus this dish pit is full plus the second sink so the sinks in the back will also be full and I'll have to wash all of those before 5 o'clock because that's when dinner service starts morning service starts at 11 so from 11 to 3 there is no dishwashing coverage so I come in and I have to do morning service dishes plus morning prep dishes plus dinner prep dishes plus dinner service dishes plus the outside bar will bring up a cart full of dishes at 6 o'clock and I'm the only dishwasher I don't really get breaks unless I go downstairs to use the bathroom. I've had to work off the clock because they want me out at a certain time and it would be physically impossible for me to get out of that certain time so I have to clock out and keep working. I have had panic attacks from this job. I've lost 25 pounds I have trench foot I'm not sure if what I did was right I clocked out and I just left out the back also tomorrow they're supposed supposed to have a 250 person banquet and I'm supposed to be the only person washing dishes. I can't do that. oh, and they also didn't give me proper PPE when I first got there so I have severe irritant contact dermatitis. My hands have such bad hyperpigmentation. My hands are so dry that I can't put my hands out fully. And I will literally go an entire shift just eating a chicken strip they also bait and switched me. They told me that I was going to have benefits. That's what the job listing said it was full-time with benefits. I got the job offer. It's full-time seasonal meaning I don't have any benefits no health insurance no nothing.

My manager called and texted me today i haven't responded

pay for groceries for your household (family of four my older sister and dad aren't at home my dad is working overseas) i pay for household items that my family requests ( ex : blinds, electric kettle, containers, bed frame for your brother) pay for my phone bill (don't mind this one)
pay for your car-related costs on a car that isn't mine
own medical-related costs (psychiatry/medication plus braces)
transcript fees
driving school
pay for the cat and cat food
clothes for my mom