u/Nuclearbats666

What are y’all’s takes on true vs mean for the nodes? I’ve seen several sources saying it doesn’t matter, but what about charts that change from 0 or 29 degrees in one sign to the other with another calculation?

And for the advice “take what resonates” that almost always makes sense but what if the person in question is feeling very lost or unsure as to what would resonate with them?

What do y’all use and have you found ones more accurate than the other? For those in similar positions do you feel like both apply or is it more clearly one option?

I hate having ADHD and Autism so much I just want to scream. I cut down my hours at work even though I love my job to help with the stress but I’m still anxious every minute of every single day. Not being able to remember things or stay consistent with my goals, the sensory overwhelm, not understanding social cues, RSD, constant rumination, brain fog, exhaustion, I’m so sick of living like this. I can’t even think.

I have 3 days off of work a week, today’s day 3, I planned to go see a movie and maybe go out to do something fun but I can’t even remember what’s fun to me anymore. I’m a huge horror nerd and the thought of going to see a horror movie today, something I love, is giving me anxiety. All day every day fucking anxiety. I’m supposed to go have fun what the fuck am I afraid of?

It’s so hard to explain to my therapist, there’s no thought of “oh what if” there’s no thought at all, just bodily tension and that horrible falling clawing feeling in my stomach that happens when you’re afraid. And not being able to THINK. I don’t understand, I just want to live but I spend so much time on my phone, playing videogames, or just sitting in a room alone. Those are the only things that make me feel like I can breathe, but it also makes me feel like my life is just passing me by. I hate being like this, I hate the constant knot in my stomach, the constant jackhammer heartbeat, I hate not being able to form a coherent thought. I wish I could just be normal or at least cope enough to learn what I even want out of life and get out of survival mode. But all the therapy, medications, coping skills, none of it helps and I’m still paralyzed. Like why the fuck do breathing exercises make my anxiety worse???

Rant over, if you read this far thank you. I know the flair says no advice but I’m open to it if anyone feels like dropping any nuggets of wisdom.