u/Odd_Road3956

I saw this animation on instagram reels playing on the misheard lyric “there's this tune
I found that makes me think of you somehow” but instead it is “there’s this TUNA i found” and the character has a tuna and plays it like a guitar for the line “and i play it on repeat”. I believe it was a simple style and in colour. I see it every time i listen to the song. it haunts me.

I’m 19, not sexually active, don’t shave or wax, don’t use scented products, and wear cotton underwear. I noticed it last night, it just felt bruised and hurt to cross my legs or sit in certain ways. I felt around better in the shower this morning and I can feel a small hard lump under the skin between my labia majora and labia minora. Hurts to touch but nothing visible. Sort of aches when not touching it. Doesn’t seem like a Bartholin's cyst because it’s not near the vaginal opening. Couldn’t be an ingrown hair because it doesn’t grow that far in. No unusual discharge. Not sure what to do. Wait it out? Go see a doctor? I’m not particularly keen to go see a doctor because I don’t have a gynaecologist and my GP has been our family doctor since I was a toddler. Help appreciated.

I’m doing everything right. i eat well, i go to the gym, i go to therapy, I’m medicated, i don’t drink, i don’t do drugs. I’m doing everything right and i still want to kill myself. what’s the point though? i feel like i’m already dead.

people say it gets better, but they’re just as miserable as i am. everything that goes over suicide follows the same idea that it’s “a permanent solution to a temporary problem”. bullshit. it’s a chronic mental illness. it’s a permanent solution to a permanent problem. no matter what i try to do to get better, i’ll always end up back here. there’s no cure, and the treatment isn’t working. that’s when they call it terminal, isn’t it?