I hate being a bisexual teenager.
I knew I was bi before I even knew what gay or bi was.
I'm coming from a LGBTQ+ supporting family, so that's not the issue..I honestly feel like I don't even have a right to complain.
The thing is, I'm surrounded by people that many of them don't like the community, so coming out was never an option(I didn't come out to my family either).
I'm also VERY girly. I'm like the last person you would believe is a part of the community at first sight..so it also makes everything a bit more difficult somehow, because even people from the community look at me twice before believing me.
I just hate myself because I feel like I'm homophonic myself sometimes..
To be honest, I kinda hate what the community has become. I don't hate the community itself, but how it is expressed. I hate pride, too extreme and idk.. I just can't relate. I find it so weird. And the thing is, I don't even know why!! I'm literally a part of the community, but I can't even feel like I am. I 100% support fighting for LGBTQ+ rights, and I will accept anybody. But sometimes, when I see the extreme people, idk, I just can't.
And I feel so bad, because I feel like if you are supporting/ a part of the community you have to accept everybody.
I'm also so confused and I have no one to talk about this with because I don't trust anybody to keep it to themselves.
I'm sorry if I offended someone, it wasn't my intention. It's a cry for help more than anything. I don't WANT to think the way I do. But sometimes I can't help but thinking: I can understand the people who hate pride and LGBTQ+ because they are only exposed to this type of people from the community who are also the ones who usually make the most negative noise.- I'm afraid to be associated with these people.
English is not my first language so I'm very sorry if there are mistakes.
I would repeat and say I wrote this post as a cry for help, not as a hating post. I WANT to accept everyone, and then hopefully also myself. I just can't convince myself all of the extreme is normal and should be accepted.