u/Ok-Character1446

I did a horrible mistake and I feel doomed

I was sooo proud of myself after not posting about my phobia for so long🥀

I was washing a plum at a work bathroom and it suddenly fell on the floor (not where the toilets are but under a paper towel dispenser). For some dumb reason I took that plum and washed it again for like 20 seconds, rubbing it with my hands under running water. Then I wiper it with a paper towel and BIT THE PLUM. I changed my mind almost immediately and spit it out but I’m positive I did swallow some of my saliva. I washed my mouth about a minute after.

Lemme say I’ve been RESTLESS since it happened. I feel like I CURSED myself. I feel so tense and afraid. Oh God. If someone has words of reassurance to me I’d be glad… I’m on the verge of crying really. I want to believe I washed it well enough but I’m not sure and it’s killing me inside.

I hate how quickly it made me lose my mind and feel actually physically bad.

I found a good deal on used Mac M1 Pro 32/512 and I seriously consider buying it, but I’m kinda afraid because it’s not a refurbished one, just used. Is there a big chance of having problems with an old Mac? Idk how careful the previous owner handled it etc… refurbished ones cost 2x where I live