u/Ok-Somewhere-8453

Hi All,

I am on my 4th EMDR session, processing intense grief and trauma. The first 3 sessions were fine, just talking about things. Followed a few dots etc.

Yesterdays one, was insanely intense and I wasnt expecting it. We made a breakthrough on a core childhood memory driving and contributing to ongoing bouts of panic attacks and emotional suppression (I learned to just be cognitive somewhere along the line).

Anyway, today I feel like absolute poop. Im highly anxious, feel like sobbing every two minutes, full body aches - actually its exactly like a hangover from alcohol.

I know some of this is to be expected, especially when the words wouldnt come out my mouth yesterday to answer my fear "part" - the pain that came was so bad I thought I might die from the overwhelming urge to just crumble, I realised in that moment that the very thing I thought I was over and put behind me 20 years ago, is the very root of all my problems today. Oddly the memory is something Ive thought about a lot, but it stopped meaning anything to me when I consciously thought about it. I felt nothing at all about it, hence why I thought "I was fine and over it".

Now I cant stop thinking about it. And it hurts so bad and i just want to cry and somebody to hug me and tell me it's going to be fine. Is any of this normal? And please tell me it gets better now that the "thing" is out there.

Thanks in advance. Hope all is going well for you personally.

I thought I hadn't taken any before pictures, but accessed the app to get my submission photos to get approved for Mounjaro.

I'm not joking when I say, not many people have commented on the loss, but commenting on a persons weight I guess isn't too nice. To that end, I therefore thought it wasn't working (hence the frantic search for a before picture).

I'm actually in genuine shock at my progress on 2.5mg. Long story short, I was dealing with grief and had a major surgery after that death, to remove a tumor from my stomach and suffer with anaemia, so I struggled to find energy to do it myself. The bigger picture was taken December 18th, 2025, I lost 8lbs on my own, and started Mounjaro on Feb 9th, after letting it sit in my fridge for 3months.The new picture is, as of today.

My start weight was 83.5kg and am now 71kg. I'm a good chunk away from final goal yet (about 10kg), but less than half way to go is such an achievement. I've felt so unwell for so long, both physically and mentally.

EMDR - Day after

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