I have wasted 33k and I am ashamed.
Sorry it's 37k
I basically bought the ACE online recorded coaching material in May and I thought I would start my prep and get an amazing rank but I haven't done any lectures and procrastinated everyday. I'm so ashamed I cannot even bring myself to admit that I haven't completed a single subject yet. I could have studied and finished the syllabus already and focused on mocks but I didn't, giving the lowly excuse of college. I am in a tier 3 college with no placements, I knew it but I still didn't study and I have wasted money as well as time. I'm in 7th sem with no placement or preparation. I have failed everyone and myself, don't be like me.
I sometimes fear that I am just shameless and worthless, an average person who has big dreams but doesn't have the guts to try and fail. I fear that I don't become successful, I would get married to a normal guy and rot and it wouldnt even be his fault but mine because I wasn't independent.