I think my dad doesn’t like me..
So yesterday, I was just in my room, watching youtube on my tv and he randomly comes in and says “this room looks… bad.” and Then “this looks.. sad.” (He was referring to what I was watching, he hates every single one of my interests and calls them stupid, dumb or brainrot) So I get pissed off cause I hate when he shits on my interests and say “YOU look sad.” And he says “if you talk back to me again in the future, I’ll just take your electronics for a month and you won’t have to worry about having electronics at your birthday party cause youll be grounded.” he also shamed me in front of my neighbor when we were driving somewhere (my neighbor found a duck in his yard so we were taking to to this bird sanctuary) saying things like “at least (my brothers name) plays outside and does stuff around the house, unlike (my name) who just hangs out in her room all day.” and when we were passing by the a house in our neighborhood that had pride flags, he shits on it by saying “these mentally ill weirdos covering their house in this creepy pride shit” so I replied with “why do you care it’s their house..?” And he says “cause it’s creepy“ it isn’t a new thing, hes right wing. I won’t get into that.
Another time when we were on a road trip to Mayo Clinic *we live in iowa so it’s basically a road trip* I was getting out of the car and he yells at me for not getting napkins out of the car saying “I don’t appreciate you, (my name). Leaving that to (my brothers name).“ when again, I didn’t even know they were there. (Usually I didn’t let this type of thing get to me but the day before the road trip my grandma died.)
when we were leaving to go back home he yells at me in public in a pizza place saying I was mumbling. I hate when he yells at me. when my mom and my brother were going back to the car, I got in the backseat and just cried silently. I was doing so bad I thought of taking my own life.(I didn’t though cause I was venting to my friend and she convinced me not to.)
back to more recent times- the day before yesterday me, my dad and my brother were at Walmart and my dad stops to take a look at the 4th of July stuff they had. my brother wanted some stupid hat and my dad asks me “do you want America stuff” to which I said no to. So when we walked back to the car he blasts some stupid South Park song. He knew I was uncomfortable. He even saw me re-adjusting my earbuds cause I didn’t wanna hear that stupid shit. When we got home I RAN inside and told my mom about what happened cause she HATES when my dad harasses me. I straight up asked if they could divorce. I don’t think she did anything about that..
sorry for the length.. I don’t know if he genuinely doesn’t like me or if im overreacting or something..