u/Ok_13yearsgone

If you’ve been hurt by church or by people who claimed to speak for God, I’m really sorry. What you went through matters, and it makes sense if it still feels heavy or confusing.

Spiritual harm hits differently — it affects trust, identity, and even how your body reacts to anything faith‑related. None of that means you’re overreacting. It means you lived through something overwhelming. I know this because it traumatized me too.

I want to say this gently and without pressure: the harm you experienced came from people, not from Jesus. The fear, shame, or control you were exposed to doesn’t reflect His character.

You’re allowed to take your time. You’re allowed to feel whatever you feel. You’re allowed to heal at your own pace. And you’re not alone here.

I have been an addict of all the drugs since I was 18. I’m closer to 50 now. I was needle free for 14-15 years. After some life changes, I didn’t handle it well, and I went overboard and it shows. I lost EVERYTHING, I lost myself and I‘m not going back there. I know my family will see my arms but they won’t think in a million years that I used again. Of course, all I can think is, “Oh my God it’s so freaking obvious, but that’s probably the meth!“

EDIT: It’s not obvious and after some sleep I’m right back where I need to be!