Confused about career due to housejob
Hello everyone!
I started my housejob in a government hospital almost 2 months ago, after graduating from a government medical college.
I was never passionate about medicine however I had stellar grades and made it into the top government medical college with the one of the top merit positions. I performed well in medical school too. cleared my step 1. had plans too clear step2 before graduation too but that didn't work out.
Now I had plans to study for step 2 during housejob however I have been struggling so much to do it. And with every passing day I am genuinely questioning if I can even do residency and be a doctor. I am confused if it is the conditions and work environment in gov hospitals in pakistan that is making me think this way or am i just not made for medicine lifestyle in general.
I feel miserable on call days im questioning if I have wasted the last almost 6 years of my life working so hard for a career that will never give me any contentment. or would practising medicine in a better setup be the fix of for this miserable feeling.
I feel so lost and confused about the future. I know have alot of potential but i have no sense of direction. I dont want to spend my youth in a career that consumes me to the point where I don't get to live my own life.
Any advice at all from anyone or anyone who felt similarly. :,)