Seriously though, I’m so fucking fat. And I have no self control, i’ll eat an entire family size bag of chips EVERY DAY if I had enough money. I try to work out and I just end up laying on the ground or watching weightloss videos. Not even my 500lbs life works, i’m just so fucking lazy.
Like…hello??? I don’t even know how that’s possible. I feel so unwanted. Not even the CREEPS want me. What hope do I have?? I’m never going to have a relationship, or get married. I mean people even avoid being my friend because of the way I look. It all sucks.
How can you afford to doordash $20 meals every single day, sometimes multiple times a day but not buy dish soap? I don’t understand my mom. I understand that she’s struggling financially but this is just disgusting, the dishes have obviously been sitting in the sink for weeks, the floors are disgusting, and I don’t want to even talk about the bathroom. It’s so bad i’m AFRAID to shower or use the bathroom at night.
When I was 12 years old I was a victim of sexual assault at the hands of a distant female cousin. I didn’t realize I was sexually assaulted until recently, I only had memories of other forms of abuse I experienced at the hands of this person, and of her threatening to assault me. The only reason this person assaulted me in the first place is because my mom gave her access to me, I don’t know if it was done intentionally or not, but I’m almost positive my mom knew because less than a month after it occurred my mom distanced herself from her, and took my sister, who had been staying with her for a few months, out of her home. Regardless my mom would constantly threaten me by saying if I did something she didn’t like she would force me to stay with her, I had the most horrible reactions whenever my mom even got on the phone with her and for the longest time I didn’t know why. My mom has done other horrible things but I never thought she would do something like this, especially since she herself is a victim of sexual assault /: I can’t stand her