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So for a while I had super bad Intrusive thoughts which often led to me looking at r34 (Something that makes me incredibly uncomfortable And always makes me want to cry and feel sick) And recently tonight they just came back and we're pretty strong now I'm feeling sad and Traumatized (Especially because there was also fetish stuff there of my f/os) I'm mostly trying to just relax at the moment And I know it's really late but this is normally when they happen They were so bad in the past that it got to the point where I had an entire night where I cried for like 3 hours And then there was some I call the moan incident which I don't know if I feel like sharing I don't wanna discuss the details of the images but if you wonder what characters they were of I may tell you

​So I was looking at a gallery online that was scenes of jack O' lantern And a fairly early image on it was fetish art of him (I don't think it was as bad as the first piece of art like that I saw of him But I still didn't like it) And it made me upset because I just hate seeing that type of art of my f/os Especially jack because he's one of my favorites Plus the sadness I get from seeing these type of images led to me shouting that he was precious one morning Sorry if this is just long rambling I just needed to get it off my chest

Show my device Doesn't automatically use google it uses bing And every time I look up jack O' lantern From billy and Mandy on there I keep seeing the same piece of fetish art (I only saw it twice but I hated it so much I decided to give up on using that site) I know this isn't really a problem But it's just something that's been going on Although I have just been really sad lately

So I ship with jack from The grim adventures of billy and Mandy And I was looking for fan fiction of him (I looked it up online because I couldn't really trust The fan fiction website I normally use which is AO3 seeing as the only fan fiction I found of him or at least the only one That was x reader​ was nsfw) So I was looking for fan fiction and found nothing that caught my eye so I decided to look at images of him and 1 of the images I saw was fetish art of him (I don't feel like discussing it unless I am asked to describe it) But one thing about me is I hate any type of Art like that (I just get really sensitive and grossed out by that kind of stuff to the point where I often believe I'm oversensitive) sorry If this is kind of a mess I'm not used to the vent format 😅

So for context I ship with the scarecrow from courage the cowardly dog I once found a review of his episode and wanted to watch it because people rarely talk about it but the reviewers basically said he deserved to be pecked by crows at the end even though I felt really sad for him during it And it just made me upset because he's so Precious

I'm not great at drawing so I haven't drawn them ocs That you can ship with I just picked the ones I thought would be the most appealing for this Virus: Like all the OC's I will mention he has an object for a head however because he is a newer OC and I'm still kind of designing him I still haven't figured out if I wanted to be a TV or a computer probably a computer Unlike the others however he does not wear a suit (he kind of wears the shirt people normally wear underneath those jackets) He used to work for 2 of my other OC's but basically went insane He has absolutely terrible social anxiety and low self-esteem and can be very awkward it can also be eccentric at times​ His color palette mostly consists of black Fuchsia or a similar type of pink and yellow I would say he's kind of similar to jax (Although he's a lot less cool than him), mr.puzzles,and cain

CPU: He has the head of a computer and his color palette is mostly white and blue also I didn't mention this but yes you can draw them if you would like I'd say he's pretty sleazy he's based off of the internet particularly the worst parts of it (I was traumatized by a parody of a show I saw when I created him so he was kind of basically based off of how I felt) So he is very cruel, Sleazy (I guess), Prideful, And just all around a jerk He wears a blue suit

Overkill: Okay at the time of when I created him I forgot what the word overkill meant So I mostly used it to mean he was very murderous while I wouldn't call him murderous he is very aggressive and easily excitable​ He is brothers CPU (His head is also a computer) He was also one of Viruses bosses back when he worked for them. He has terrible impulse control And it's just an absolute menace.