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I bought a ticket that is the first step.

I’m gaining the ability for dual awareness and it is freaking me out. I’m just venting.

I get scared. I have been so overtaken by others at times. I get a bit resentful of the stuff I see online “choose to be the version of yourself that you want to be”

I know that is true but also I feel like amnesia makes that really hard.

It was a great loss

Try to live your lives

So much time caged in alters

The grieving is awful

So many times the collective fear

But it was so long ago :(

Get help if you can

Life is really happening

did anyone also have a part so heavily invested in a daydream it took over your whole life for a time? we didn’t develop real skills because the daydream and amnesia would take over. I finally found a psychologist who might be willing to offer sliding scale. I feel devastated that nothing has been built in my life, just fragmented efforts and daydreams.

I highly encourage people to seek help if they can, but I wanted to know how many others have been working through it on their “own”?

whether it’s financial, no coverage, remote area, distrusting alters, immobility - whatever barriers keep you from help, or maybe unreliable others?

we have been. we’re estranged. we went through psychology/psychiatry long enough to get a diagnosis. a few attempts at trying. just wondering who else

old host has gone dormant, I’m separate with different others. she’s separate, dormant with others. I’m mad she left because it’s her life.
I know logically it’s mine. It’s hers. the subsystem.. it’s like switchboard cables. I’m in a loop, I don’t want to face life without them. I feel so lonely. I was there but restricted, I’ve been processing her memories. I am so sad. I don’t like my parts I like hers.

I’m so mad at this. I need a friend. I lost my spirit.