u/One_Care_4865

i never related to any of the love songs that all songwriters write or all girls my age relate to. im a simple girl,

i've experienced and have given love in many formats in my life but i've never recieved or felt that type of love - the type of love or fancy from a romantic partner or even felt that someone remotely liked me for me.

till a few days a go, you see its been  5 months at university, i've had my eye on you and i felt that you were different, that you were simple and real.

We messaged a bit abt classes etc when we went online, but then last thursday we texted more and then more. we talked without many breaks for 5  days, random stuff. You seemed entirely different than your physical self. louder and more lively.

i felt giddy, i related  to romantic songs and i felt different.

i think its safe to say i got ahead of myself. i could be jumping the line, but it was weird what you said, im a kind person i hate making others feel bad, but i still stood my stand, but now i just cant help but to think your just the same. same as all the other guys. a part of me hopes your not.

i most likely dont even know anything about you, maybe you think i enjoy you acting like this - a superficial version of you which would entice me. it wont, just be real with me.

i hope im wrong about you. you seemed so kind. yet we still text as if everythng is the same,

'tmrw' i said i will speak to you in class. oh god how i hope you are how i dreamed.

Hey guys first time poster here

Had a quick question if anyone has watched the Billie eilish movie and if it’s good to watch here in Dxb like is it 3D? Me and my friends wanna go but we also are getting the opportunity to watch it in the Uk like when we go there. Let us knowwwwww

im so confused I see a bunch of "becky confirmed this" etc alot on here who is she? sorry if im acting dumb LOL

heyyyy

soooo basically I watched the Percy Jackson movies a whileeee ago then I watched season 1 of pjo on Disney LAUVED ITTTT, and then season 2 came out and ive forced myself to read the books before watching the series and I recently finished book 1 so im allowed myself to watch s1 again lol. im currently reading book 2 and im so in loveee I loved book 1 smmmm I think I might like it better than the series idk. and I feel like walker is perfect. and while reading I can only imagine Percy as walker and annabeth as Leah and grover as aryan etc like I cant unsee them lol. but I love book 1 sm and compared to the show I feel it is pretty diff but hey I cant do much UGHHHH but I LOVE ITTTT.

my parents took me out of school cus they found out I had social media even though I didn’t post anything and that I lied i didnt. So they took me out of school during my IGCSE year and made me stay at home and I had no contact with any of my friends and I wasn’t allowed to contact them. Finally the school realized and my mom made a bs excuse why I don’t go like smthin that I was scared of some boys (cus like a month ago they categorized all the girls in to a list and I was on the wouldn’t even rape- this is true btw) I wasn’t scared I didn’t even care. But the school felt bad for me and put me in a isolated room and I just sat in a empty room for hours everyday studying for my IGCSES(British exams) and I had this friend I’ll call her martini. We were very close for like 4 years - she took shit from her friend group to be friends w me and I mean she made me feel very happy at times. I have so many memories with her. many of my friends were very worried abt me ofc and I wasn’t allowed to speak to anyone. This was a very bad time for me i was going through a lot: flack at home only seeing the same 3 people everyday and just feeling like shit. I missed my friends and I would journal to them in my diary all the time. I found out they were always asking abt me. Later on when everything became a little bit better and my mom gained some trust In me I was allowed to take some of my exams in the private learning classes so with students who needed extra time. now martini was one of the students. she saw me and she didn't do anything later on she came up to me and acted like it was just liek before. till at one point a couple of days later I hugged her and I apologized and she said lets not talk abt this now cus we have exams, I understood. we greeted each other in the hallways and became a bit more distant. till summer break I messaged her on a school platform since I still wasn't allowed my phone or anything back. I asked her for number and wished her the best with her future endeavors since I wouldn't be continuing at that school the next academic year. she replied liek a month later with her number but said that she didn't want to hang out with me and would prefer it if we called only, she said that she was hurt by my actions and that she deserved an apology for me dissapearing. I was really devastated to say the least and my mom saw the messages and she got really upset and replied back saying that this was her mom and that she was really upset upon seeng this but one thing should be clear is that my daughter shouldn't need to apologize for anything she was going through a very rough time and had moments were she was completely broken and shes told us amazing things abt you martini its sad to hear this. then martini replied disapproving saying that is would have to apologize my mom replied back saying that its sad to hear this and we hope that she has a blessed future ahead. then her father replied saying it was highly innappropiate that she was messaging his daughter and that he reported her and that we never contact her again. so I hate myself and everythign ever this was last year. I saw her recently once at school she just kinda ran away with her friend. and I think about her every single day knowing that she doesn't even think of me once. I hate that I miss her but I do. and she struggled a lot in her life with her parents etc. and I just hate everything and how it all ended. I hate that I miss her I really do.

Idk what to do its been a full year and I can't stop thinking abt her.