u/Oodles-of-Noodles12

So I had a client that my boss suggested that I transfer off my caseload. I had enjoyed working with them but due to some personal issues on my end as well as their needs I knew I needed to transfer. I had worked with them for a few years but the last 6 months that perspective shifted. I grew unable to stand them and would actively try to avoid them unless we needed to speak. The client approached me today and told me that they weren’t working with me and the conversation was awkward. I feel guilt for having them go off my caseload. I’ll still see them at my program but, I could effectively meet their needs .
Their behavior grew very triggering for me and annoyances wouldn’t pass. I feel guilty because the person was likeable. They grew so frustrating for me to work with and I just can’t do effective work. How do you cope with this and did I make a bad choice?

So today I got news that a client of mine had passed away. They discharged from my program in January and wanted to return after a physical health issue cleared. Unfortunately the issue killed them. I saw them in my office once a week for 45 minutes for close to a year. They were kind, funny and their meetings were the highlight of my day. If folks had this happen how did/do you cope. Emotionally I am very devastated and it’s the first time experiencing this.