u/Opposite_Bar2726

Life is kicking my ass. I suppress all emotions to the point I can't feel anything, I have no close friends, I wear a mask hiding my true self to my friends that i do have, and to to my family, I make women feel scared, I objectify myself, I have resources management issues particularly with identifying as someone who is secure in themselves simply "having" things in life like money, happiness, friends, girlfriends, etc.

This is only the beginning. 25M now, i've been a loner since 2018. Started that because my first ex called me up and said she got drunk with some guy at his place and they had sex, loosely consensual. Barely consensual. that fucked me up.

years of no community no friends and barely social life with coworkers and family since I live on my own has led me to become underdeveloped, antisocial, and broken hearted.

My most recent ex I fucked up her emotions so bad she hated me. I let my emotions decide what's best for me even tho as I man I'm supposed to do what's right regarding me and her. I fucked up so much.

I fear what i'm becoming every day.

I got ground beef rice and beans tho.

Fuck me.

Checkout my fist time purchase of silver. My plan is to flip it to one day be able to buy some gold.