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whatever the Movie is about doesn‘t matter it would be peak anyways.

I really want a movie i don‘t understand with the weird ambience/vibe. I love the Music too. I know there is „Primer“ and „Predestination“ but those didn‘t resonate with me especially „Predestination“ i hated it for obvious reasons. I watched all other Gilliams movies obviously. I am looking for something weird with such an intriguing plot that i have to look up an explanation for it. Also i like kubrik but those are just too long sometimes, i want something better paced.

i am really enjoying Blade Runner enhanced edition and want more like it, preferably it should not be 2D and it should be a point and click, investigative, dystopian sci-fi game with an intresting good story?

**TL;DR;** : I am in a relationship with a girl i love, but because of the things that happend i can‘t enjoy my life anymore. I want to breakup but i just can‘t.

So i came here to seek advice. I have alot of friends, very close and good friends and a loving family but i am way to ashamed to talk about this with anyone so i came here.

I was dating a girl 5 years ago and i loved her very much she still is the only girl i ever truly loved. We Dated for like 8 months and then she left me for her ex-boyfriend. I was really sad and missed her alot, i never stopped thinking or dreaming about her in those 5 years. We never saw each other again and i never looked at any of her socials. Now a couple of months ago she texted me again and said she wanted to apologize and she felt bad about the situation we had. Obviously with this much time passed i had no bad feelings, we were really young and she was always kind to me.

So we started dating again and in the beginning it was perfect, but now i caught her lying again about her ex and it really hurted me. She explained herself and i somewhat saw her point a little bit. She promised it would never happen again, but now i am really overthinking the whole time. I am more sad and stressed than i ever was before. I tried talking to her about it and she always has a explanation and thinks its „not that deep“ or that i should „get over it“ but i just can‘t for me it is that deep. I would give everything i have to just not love her anymore but i just can‘t. I know the obvious advice would be to breakup, but i just can‘t risk again to think and dream about her for the next 5 years. I really don‘t know what to do i want to lose the strong feelings i have for her but it just doesn’t work. I can‘t break up with her but i can‘t keep living like this it. I can‘t concentrate on any thing i had fun before like watching movies, reading or playing video games. The only time i don‘t think about our situation is when i am out drinking with friends, so i am doing that alot now but that is no solution.

Is there anyone who was in a similar situation and has experience what helped?