u/Original_Basis5830

I got diagnosed with bipolar 1 when I was 18. I’m 22 now and I’m just now realizing my diagnosis. I didn’t believe it when I was first diagnosed. I tried medication, but believed it was doing nothing, so I stopped after about a year. I thought I was misdiagnosed and that I was fine. Looking back now, I’m really just realizing that all my mood swings, my crazy up and downs, are really just this disorder that I was diagnosed with and have been living with unmedicated. It’s affected every aspect of my life, and I’ve been a horrible person at times because of it and who I am. I’m reaching out to get help today. I think if I keep on the way I am, I’m not going to have any relationships at the end. I’m not a good friend, significant other, or daughter. I realize that every day and I’m really just wanting to change that. I don’t want to do the crazy shit I’ve been doing, and I don’t want to feel as sad as I’ve been. I’m just tired of it, and I just want to be myself. I want to be who I want to be, and not the way I am now. I feel like I’m going insane, but I just scheduled my first psychiatrist appointment since the past 3 years. I don’t know what the point of this post was, I just feel that I needed to put this somewhere. I just want to be better than I have been. How do you know your current medication is working? If you also experience bipolar disorder, how is being medicated different than being unmedicated? How do you tell a difference?

Hey yall I’m on day 3. I am so exhausted all the time. I don’t think I have slept this much in my entire life. I go to work during the day, then immediately come home and sleep until my next shift. I think I made it this far to day 3 because I have been sleeping non stop, I haven’t had time to think about missing vaping. Honestly though I haven’t had any super bad cravings, I am just so tired. It’s so hard to drive to work, to wake up, to sit at my desk. Waking up is the hardest. I feel like I have been looking an absolute mess everyday because I take any extra time to sleep in. Anyways, does anyone have advice to stop the extreme fatigue? Or is this just a side effect I’m going to have to ride out?