u/Other_Trouble_3252

I’m a high performer and been with my current company for 2 years this July. I’ve consistently hit KPIs, been told I’m a high performer by my boss (“I don’t know what I’d do without you”), and have been rated as “exceeds expectations” in our performance reviews.

I’m 38 weeks pregnant and starting my LOA starting at 39 weeks.

I told my boss I was pregnant at 6 weeks because of fatigue so she’s known for months.

As I’m nearing the end of my pregnancy I’m in constant pain, severe brain fog, discomfort, blah blah blah. The usual.

As we talked through my transition plan 2 weeks ago she panicked that I was taking my leave at 39 weeks. She apologized for her reaction, we had a good plan blah blah blah. (She asked “you’re coming back right?”)

Turns out our business is picking up and essentially we’re busier than originally planned while I’m out.

I had another 1:1 with my boss today and she mentioned how much I’m getting done this week and the energy and that she was worried because she senses I was disconnected/burnt out over the last couple weeks and that it had been noted by other people, she asked if I was coming back and would understand if I wanted to stay home with two babies and I just felt so confused and frustrated. (I have been trying to offload work and have been more disconnected this last month, I’ll admit)

I really like my job. I like my company. I explained to her I’m just pregnant and it’s exhausting but I walked away feeling so guilty and that I shouldn’t be taking this time off. It’s hard too cause I’m the primary income earner in our household.

I dunno I’m just disappointed. We’ve had a good relationship in the past. She doesn’t have kids and I know is navigating fertility issues. So maybe that’s at play?

Sigh, just needed to vent.