u/Otherwise-Try-7938

He works at a grocery store so pita chips, Boursin cheese spread, smoked tofu straight from the block, and carrot chips it is.

I don’t know if I am genuinely the ugliest person I’ve ever met or if I just have horrible self esteem from a childhood full of bullying and abuse… I’m at a point in my life where I either want to glow up or just decide that I’m never going to feel beautiful and stop wasting my time worrying about it. I know I need to lose weight but I just wish I could have the right proportions or an okay face now as I am

My hair has been dyed a couple of times over the years. I am trying to grow it out and have been trimming it at home. I’ve always struggled with my hair being poufy; as a child my mom would always have it cut short and the hairstylists would go crazy with the thinning shears.
I feel like it’s thinned out a bit now that I’m in my late 20s. I’m experiencing some scalp issues lately with itchiness but I think it’s because I am a chronic scalp picker..
I feel like my hair is looking really bad lately. When it’s soaking wet out of the shower I have curls that form so that led me to try curly/wavy hair methods.
These photos are after double cleansing with Maui Hibiscus Water shampoo, conditioning with ogx coconut curls conditioner, and squeezing in coconut curls curl styling milk, Kristin Ess sea salt air dry mousse, and cake curl friend gel-to-foam into soaking wet hair. I then plopped into a cotton t shirt for 10 mins then air dried, applied a small amount of castor oil and this is what it looks like :/ honestly looks pretty much the same without any products and air drying. It seems super dry and also gets really tangled. I don’t understand what I’m doing wrong, I’ve tried using other gels/mousses/creams/products and things too but it just feels like my hair is super damaged and I don’t know why. I haven’t dyed it for like two years. I’m really wanting to grow long but am willing to get a cut if I need to do get rid of any damage. Any advice would be appreciated!!