u/OtherwiseBullfrog185 — reddlx

Might be a lesbian but nothings happened yet

I’m in the process of breaking away from my engagement to a man, for the simple reason that I just don’t think we’re mentally or emotionally compatible, even tho he’s a good man.
But quietly, something in my head is telling me I’m a lesbian. Like even my algorithm will sometimes serve me ‘secretly a lesbian’ stuff and I’m like STOP THIS 😭😂

I’ve identified as bi my whole life. And maybe I still am but I just can’t be with a cishet man and play the part of a cishet woman, because I’m too queer in my soul. Or maybe it’s just this relationship in particular that didn’t work out. I don’t know. Time will tell. I’m still not fully broken off from him and things are going to be complicated for a little while.

But yeah. Besides having MULTIPLE homoerotic codependent friendships throughout my development, talking to and kissing a couple girls, and growing up with crushes on female characters, I’ve never been in an actual lesbian relationship or identified that way. But we will see. 👁️ because as a teenager I had this crisis so many times haha

u/OtherwiseBullfrog185 — 2 days ago

▲ 25 r/hinduism

I’m Hellenic polytheist but don’t feel the same sort of spiritual community with other Hellenistic pagans. Can I have a conversation with a Hindu? I’m curious

A lot of the Hellenistic polytheist community are white people who are attempting to reconstruct the religion from the mythology. They are very literal thinkers, don’t really think about the metaphysical nature of the spirituality, and just kind of treat it like it’s white people Christianity, but with more gods. I find it extremely hard to talk to these people. Also because I myself am a Greek and I think a lot of what they do is shallow appropriation. Most other Greeks are Christian and I can’t talk about this with them.

Hindus are lucky their original religion and their culture didn’t get severed from each other like this. I’m not super knowledgeable about Hinduism, but from what I vaguely know, I do think there are many synchronicities between Hinduism and Hellenism. I think you guys have the type of metaphysical spiritual know-how that im searching for.

I would love to have a conversation with a Hindu about our ideas and about the types of things I’ve been experiencing since I started to return to my native spirituality. I would prefer if we DMed.

Thank you to anyone willing to speak to me🙏🏼

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u/OtherwiseBullfrog185 — 6 days ago

▲ 1 r/enlightenment

Coming to terms with what you are

Not here to spread wisdom I don’t quite have yet. I’m sharing & experience

I’ve been on my path. I feel like I’ve begun phase 3 of my spiritual awakening. I’m gonna try to not write paragraphs but for me, phase 1 was the mere thirst for knowledge, when I was a sponge to information about any and everything

Phase 2 was about understanding the layers of dimensions. Understanding that I am a higher dimensional being than just 3. Meditating to see myself in the fourth dimension, meditating about a lot. Reading Jung and developing a structured spiritual belief system and a personal practice. Tuning in to frequencies & sharpening intuition

Phase 3 is just starting to dawn on me, so I can’t yet comprehend what it is. But I can tell one of the themes is: I don’t even know what I am. I am I credibly magical and powerful. I am incredibly ancient and omnipresent. I am here as healer and a guide. But all of this has deep implications that I’m not ready to take on yet.

Should I go to a psychic and get a past life reading? lol

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u/OtherwiseBullfrog185 — 24 days ago