u/PDX_pot_pixie420

I've finally decided I've had enough and can't deal with life anymore. 45f, Portland Oregon. No family, "friends" are pieces of shit, no kids. Got out of an abusive marriage coming up on 2 years ago in September, severe health issues including congestive heart failure. No one bothers to come over and visit unless I bribe them with weed or something. I'm willing at this point to dox myself and have someone literally come kill me. I don't want to be here anymore, I haven't wanted to be here in a really long time. I try to meet people and try to build a support system, it's always, "so we gonna fuck?"

I'm done, I'm exhausted. Somebody please just come help me end this. I don't want to be alive after midnight tonight. I'm desperate.

TW: Suicide/Self Harm

If you have a friend who is always trying to reach out and tell you that they need company (a text once in a while, a visit here and there), or if you tell them to get a hold of you if they need anything and you make a habit of ghosting them or letting them down all the time, then you have absolutely no right to be sad or upset when you find out that life finally got to be too much for them. You could have been the only reason they stuck around as long as they did and you basically showed them that their life meant nothing to you. Morally, you're no better than an actual murderer.