Imagine paying for a subscription that costs $200 a month that eventually causes cancer, fucks up your lungs, makes your teeth yellow and it’s only objective is to keep you coming back offering nothing else in return. Yes, that is what you have been paying for, you were scammed, time to let go.
It’s the same pattern as always, I’ll just play low stakes, have some fun and keep doing it in lower stakes, but as usual I lost a bit and putting in greater stakes to chase back and for the thrill of playing higher stakes. Didn’t take long to lose everything, I finally understand it’s a disease and I’m powerless to it. I will NEVER be in control of this addiction and it will always make me hate myself.
I’m currently using patch and gums and staying away from smokes. I’ll be getting my teeth cleaned this week but not too hopeful
Imagine your life is the best game ever made but there is a bug, a bug that follows you and unless you address it, the total game shortens(you will not be able to complete the game). You also don’t know how short your game gets or how fast. The only way to enjoy the full game is to get rid of the bug. You can only play this game once. Would you let it follow you till the game eventually shortens and ends? No, you would kill the bug so you can enjoy this best game ever made. The bug is the cigarette.