u/Particular_Worth_805

im 19 female. im a virgin and im waiting till marriage. i never had a bf, kissed, hugged, hung out with a man or anything sexual. i have had talking stages and most of these men leave because i wont send them explicit photos of myself. i had one man beg me for almost 3 months and he blocked me at least 5 times until he gave up on me ( i never blocked him cuz i really liked him). whenever a guy talks about his past i get super insecure and my heart justs aches idk why. i start feeling like im a loser. whenever i see online couples my age i feel the same way. i was almost forced into a marriage last summer when i was 18. i go behind my parents back and talk to these guys but right now im talking to none. i think i mainly get insecure becuase my only fate is arranged. sometimes i feel like guys also get the ick from me when they realize i have no experience too

im 19F and im almost done with my second year of college. im failing terribly, if i fail one more semester im out. im so ashamed and i feel bad for my parents and i feel like i failed them, i did honestly. i have no excuse. i dont party and i dont hang out with people and skip lectures. i try to study but its so hard to focus and i got depression and ive been really trying to end it , i attempted last month but no one knew and it didnt work. i had to retake calc 1 4 times and other subjects multiple times and my gpa is so bad. i got bullied and honestly i have not had a good experience at all, i cry a lot at least 4 times a day. i wake up with so much anxiety . i feel so alone, did anyone ever go through the same thing or is currently going through it ?