u/Past-Restaurant48

It's been almost a month my (M23) girlfriend and my bestest friend (F26) in the whole wide world passed on 15th June 2026.

10 days after her 26th birthday (05th June).

Last year her dad fell terribly sick at the same month and she had to leave her uni exams in between to go help out with that situation, the family lived in a different state.

My exams were also going on and she used to make a point to even wish me all the best before my exam days.

She was the smartest and most brilliant and intelligent person I've ever talked to she topped state-wide in grade 12th, got scholarship money, went to the finest college, we met online when COVID hit, i was just a kid 18year old she found me very interesting for some reason and just wanted to speak to me endlessly and she used to do a lot for no reason we were not even a thing and she flew down to me I lost my virginity to her she paid for everything, i was just living she taught me basic etiquettes ordering food in a restaurant, saying thankyou everything.

Fast forward to 6 years we had gotten into a relationship shortly after her first visit only.

She used to have anger issues for which she was going to therapy when we started talking i didn't know that.

Later more recently it got worse she stopped going we kept breaking up and fighting and but I had decided as her last birthday was spent in a hospital and she was stressed and sad i would make it a point not to give her a single reason to get angry.

She always used to have stomachache and was always little underweight upon asking she always told it's ulcer and nothing can be done it get better on its own she just can't eat much spicy or sour and stuff, and it had stopped happening recently which i made a point and mentioned to her also,

I met her last in May ending I told her i won't be there for her birthday but I will come to her and we will celebrate as I was going to shift to a different state and wanted to spend some time with family.

Birthday was well spent later she threw a party also to her few coworkers and 2 days later mid work she was vomiting and had bad stomachache i and her felt it's normal she said it's gastric she ate some tangerines in the morning it will get better if she restes it didn't, he had is a general doc he told some meds it and the neighbours took her to the hospital she took injections but was adamant to not getting admitted for some reason came back stayed in pain for 3 days then her sister flew down took her again and the docs did CT scan and apparently she had perforation in her intestines immediate surgery happened but the infection had spread they put her on ventilator asked me not to come and she will get better then only see her i prayed to every god but in less than 72 hours she had a cardiac arrest and passed away and I saw her lifeless body later did the rituals now im away i don't know what to do the last thing she said to her sister was she made my initials with her fingers and pointed towards the phone (im assuming inform "him")

This her sister told me after everything I don't know what to do.

She was so hopeful for the future as she finally got a job after her batchelors which was from one of the best college, she did her master's from a somewhat tier 2 college which was expensive also and she was embarrassed about it so she worked so hard and was always stressed that she will get a job and be able to make the money soon that was spent here.

Even when she was moving to a flat she asked her dad one last time for money and this time he asked her "when will u return" and she was so proud as she had started earning very very good.

I just have lost faith in everything they are the nicest people ever, i don't know how to believe in god or what to do.

Sorry it's so long I just had to write it.

Sorry.