I'm a pathetic loser

Realistically, I don't have any chance of living a normal or meaningful life anymore. Just survival.

I can't start my life at 25 when I have no knowledge of the world. I can't make friends either. Why would anyone my age want to be friends with me? What could they talk to me about when I know nothing about anything?

I don't have the energy I had when I was 20 anymore. All my hopes and dreams are gone. My brain has atrophied. My memory is gone. When I was 20, 21 I could read two books a day. Now I can't even read five pages in a day.

I never had any formative experiences. I don't have any memories. I don't have a foundation to build my life on. For the past three years, I've spent every single day in my room. I've become mentally ill and I've withered away.

Ever since I was a child, I've always felt different from everyone else. I've never truly felt like I belonged. I've spent almost every day of my life living in stress and fear.

There's something fundamentally wrong with my personality. My intelligence is limited. My perspective on life is fundamentally flawed.

I didn't have any real problems but I still managed to ruin my life. If I could, I would give my body to someone who is seriously ill, someone who values life more and deserves the chance to live a normal life.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 day ago

Forever a teenager

I didn't live my teenage years or my young adulthood. I'm 25 now and I'm supposed to be a fully grown adult. I'm not. Mentally I'm 15. How can I be a functional adult if I didn't mature during my formative years?

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 7 days ago
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Is it too late to start a career in the culinary industry at 25yo with no prior experience?

At the moment I only cook simple dishes because I don't have access to many tools or resources, but I'd really like to give this career path a try. Considering that it takes many years to become a skilled chef, do you think 25 is too late to enter the industry and build a career from scratch? Thank you!

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 12 days ago
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What is the best path to becoming a chef?

I want to create a 10-year plan (from age 25 to 35) to become a chef. What advice would you give me? Where should I start and how can I continue growing in the profession?

I’m also interested in knowing which countries would be the best to travel to in order to learn the craft and gain valuable experience in different culinary cultures.

I can’t afford to spend €20,000 on a culinary school program, but I’m planning to take a 6-month cook training course that costs around €2,000. Do you think that would be a good starting point?

Any advice, recommendations or insights would be greatly appreciated. Thank you!

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 17 days ago

I feel like a prisoner of my own mind

I’ve felt like it was already too late since I was 22. I’m 25 now and people keep telling me that I’m still young and that I have my whole life ahead of me. But I felt like something inside me died at 22.

How do you start your life at 25 when you spent your formative years (15–25) isolated, without the experiences that help people grow and develop and when you know nothing about the world? I’m trying to create a 10-year plan for my life but because I don’t have a foundation to build on I don’t even know where to begin.

If I were an intelligent person, I would probably go to a technical university now or later, but I’m not. I don’t know what I want from life. And I feel too drained, too damaged, too exhausted to pull myself out of this state and start building a future for myself.

I hate myself for isolating myself because of insecurities that seem completely meaningless to me now. I hate myself for not having the courage to go to university when I was 20. I hate myself for wasting these years and for letting this period of my life destroy me. My brain is atrophied.

I want to get out of this state, but I have no idea which direction to take.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 17 days ago

I decided to end it

I tried when I was 20 for the same reason, I couldn't do anything with my life. Back then, I had a vision, a perspective, I had dreams, I had hope. I was a normal person. Now I'm 25 and at the lowest point I've ever been. I ruined my life in every way. The only anchor that kept me alive was moral integrity. But I fell.

I can no longer look at myself in the mirror. I've become a different person. I can't spend the rest of my life afraid of the reflection staring back at me. I've ruined my life in a fundamental way. Not even the possibility of an eternity in hell frightens me as much as the thought of living the rest of my life as myself, burdened by the guilt, remorse, and regrets I have brought upon myself.

At 22 I felt the moment when I had a mental and intellectual regression. A few months later I felt the moment when it seemed like my whole life had flown away. Since then I haven't been myself. Now, trying to create a vision of the future, I realize that I will never find peace again. Nowhere in this world. I have fundamentally destroyed myself in the last three years.

I have always been afraid of the transition to adulthood, but I never imagined it would happen like this. I wanted to live my life, to love, to laugh, to help, to work, to have a family, but I failed and I can't accept that I ended up in this situation. I died a long time ago and at the same time I was not born.

I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt. My own sins killed me.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 28 days ago

I decided to end it

I tried when I was 20 for the same reason, I couldn't do anything with my life. Back then, I had a vision, a perspective, I had dreams, I had hope. Now I'm 25 and at the lowest point I've ever been. I ruined my life in every way. The only anchor that kept me alive was moral integrity. But I fell.

At 22 I felt the moment when I had a mental and intellectual regression. A few months later I felt the moment when it seemed like my whole life had flown away. Since then I haven't been myself. Now, trying to create a vision of the future, I realize that I will never find peace again. Nowhere in this world. I have fundamentally destroyed myself in the last three years.

I have always been afraid of the transition to adulthood, but I never imagined it would happen like this. I wanted to live my life, to love, to laugh, to help, to work, to have a family, but I failed and I can't accept that I ended up in this situation. I died a long time ago and at the same time I was not born.

I'm sorry to everyone I've hurt. My own sins killed me.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

I'm stupid

Three years ago I lost myself trying to get a woman's attention. I sacrificed my mental well-being and intellectual growth, only to realize later that she didn't care about me and she was using me as a source of emotional comfort. I still remember that summer when I decided not to enroll in college because I wanted to save all of my emotional energy for her. Then I lost my mind and experienced a period of severe mental and intellectual regression. My brain is still fried. I'm incredibly stupid.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

Forever a teenager

I am 25 years old but my mind has remained the same as when I was 15. I haven't evolved in any way. I don't know anything about the world, I don't have any passion, I don't have a perspective, I don't have a vision for the future

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

My greatest fear

I am living through the greatest fear I have carried since childhood - the fear of transitioning into adulthood and the fear of wasting my life. It took root in me as early as kindergarten and I have lived with it every single day since then. Now, that fear has become my reality.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

De ce Dan nu isi pune purtator de cuvant?

Nu iti place sa vorbesti si nu te pricepi, de ce nu iti pui purtator de cuvant? Pana si Basescu a avut iar el le avea cu vorbele.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

I’m afraid of transitioning into adult life. In fact, this fear is the reason I became a hikikomori

Ever since I was a child, I knew I was somewhat different from other people and I was always afraid of the moment when I would have to step into adulthood. By the time I finished high school at 19, that fear had become overwhelming.

I didn’t have the courage to enroll in university, even though I genuinely wanted to experience student life. I told myself I would take a one-year gap to figure out what I wanted to do with my life. That one year turned into six.

During those six years, my mental health deteriorated. I suffered, isolated myself and slowly destroyed my life because I couldn’t find the strength to take what should have been a simple step forward.

I feel deeply ashamed and guilty about how things turned out. It feels like I lost the most important years for personal growth and development. For six years, I felt sorry for myself while watching my life slip away.

If I had found the courage to take that step at 19, my life would be completely different today. The regret is destroying me.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

Ati avut colegi mai in varsta?

Sunt curios ce varste aveau si cum s-au integrat. Presupun ca majoritate avea experienta de viata. Eu as incepe la 27 dar nu doar facultatea ci si viata, deci sunt oarecum ingrijorat cu privire la integrarea mea. Va multumesc!

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

Ca student la medicina, ai weekendul ocupat?

Vreau sa dau la medicina dar doresc sa muncesc in weekend. Presupun ca in timpul saptamanii nu as avea timp dar sunt interesat sa aflu, din cunostintele voastre, daca in weekend as putea. Sunt cursuri si in weekend? Cunoasteti persoane care muncesc in timpul facultatii? Ce job au si cum reusesc sa se descurce cu facultatea? As aprecia orice informatie. Multumesc!

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

Regret

How do you deal with the regret of having had plenty of time but not using it to learn something that could help you earn a living or to prepare for university entrance exams? Now I want to start my life but I’m older, my brain feels atrophied and the regret is destroying me.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago
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What is it like to work as a cook in Norway?

Hello! I’m considering moving in Norway to work in this field. In my country, the industry is quite demanding: long working hours, a lot of stress and low pay. Is it the same in Norway? I would really appreciate it if you could share some information. Thank you!

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago

I'm going insane

I'm losing my mind more and more every day. All of this because I didn’t have the courage to take a single step: university or a job. Just one step. I didn’t have the courage to take responsibility for my own life. And now I’m living in a hell that I created myself.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago
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I am at a very low point

25 years old and my life is full of regret and guilt. I’ve lived in fear for as long as I can remember and I I ruined my own life with my own decisions. I have a terrible personality, no passions, no higher education and I spent the last seven years stuck in the same room. I destroyed my parents’ peace, my past feels dark, my present is crushing me and the future looks hopeless.

All of this started because of insecurities and complexes I developed as a teenager, things that don’t even matter to me anymore. That’s what hurts the most. I can’t believe I let those fears destroy so many years of my life for no real reason. Ever since kindergarten, I was afraid of the moment I would have to enter adulthood, but I never imagined I would end up in a situation like this.

I feel sad, empty and emotionally numb, like my soul has turned to stone. I shake, I cry and I can’t believe this is the life I’m living, a life I created myself.

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u/Past-Weakness6956 — 1 month ago