I'm a pathetic loser
Realistically, I don't have any chance of living a normal or meaningful life anymore. Just survival.
I can't start my life at 25 when I have no knowledge of the world. I can't make friends either. Why would anyone my age want to be friends with me? What could they talk to me about when I know nothing about anything?
I don't have the energy I had when I was 20 anymore. All my hopes and dreams are gone. My brain has atrophied. My memory is gone. When I was 20, 21 I could read two books a day. Now I can't even read five pages in a day.
I never had any formative experiences. I don't have any memories. I don't have a foundation to build my life on. For the past three years, I've spent every single day in my room. I've become mentally ill and I've withered away.
Ever since I was a child, I've always felt different from everyone else. I've never truly felt like I belonged. I've spent almost every day of my life living in stress and fear.
There's something fundamentally wrong with my personality. My intelligence is limited. My perspective on life is fundamentally flawed.
I didn't have any real problems but I still managed to ruin my life. If I could, I would give my body to someone who is seriously ill, someone who values life more and deserves the chance to live a normal life.