The way I gasped when you said three year old little girl?
I was 37 having been married for 17 years with no kids. I had decided i would take one more year to work my butt off to try to conceive, because we wouldn't be able to afford IVF.
And it just happened! Once, an early miscarriage. And then my miracle baby came, and my life became complete.
The stories you are sharing of women are so important and rare, thank you.
For about three years I have been having these breathing attacks that I didn't understand. I thought they were from taking hydrocodone daily. I stopped the hydrocodone after a few months and the attacks stopped, and then a few months later they started again. Eventually after a dozen doctors and ER visits, a doctor suggested it may be gerd. In a million years I would have never guessed it had to do with my eating. At first, it seemed to be caused by big meals, spicy foods, energy drinks, coffee. Then I couldn't eat anything with tomatoes, citrus. Then anything too fibrous, then no meat, and then the only thing I could ingest was smoothies with no citrus (frozen slush kinds seem to soothe the air hunger for some reason.) and chocolate. I lost 30 lbs because I could no longer eat food. I was diagnosed with asthma, but for some reason that didn't seem right even though I started having a little wheeze in my lungs after I ate. And they tested me for tons of allergies with no food allergies returning. I suggested mcas to the allergist and I think she was doubtful.
Eventually after months of testing, they found I had a hiatal hernia and I thought, this had got to be it. I had surgery to fix it, and I thought it was working for a few weeks, but then I regressed and now I can't eat again.
They think I am crazy, I know they do. When I was having the reaction seemingly to hydrocodone, I was convinced it was a histimine issue. And when I stopped the hydro, it stopped for months. I don't know what triggered the return.
Does this feel familiar to anyone? Any advice? I'm so scared I'm going to live like this forever. I'm always sneaking nibbles of real food as I cook for my family and end up with my nasal passages feeling swollen and like my chest is just too small for my lungs. At worst, I legitimately feel like I am having a heart attack and it lasts for days. And then after these attacks big or small I am WIPED. And usually weak.
I'm 40, and I am on the pill to reduce pmdd symptoms. I have been experiencing some interesting things.. night wakings, sore joints, exacerbation of existing chronic pain, fatigue, shooooortening patience with my 3 year old and husband, some nasty anxiety which I have had under control for a while now. voracious hunger for SPECIFICALLY white chocolate peanut butter cups. I feel like I am pregnant again.
but Facebook is PUSHING hrt companies on me so hard, I almost think I'm imagining half this stuff, or it's not as bad as I am imagining. or I need to wait for some harder proof im not just in a funk. I'm used to being gaslit about my health so who knows