u/Perfect_Park_5708

So I don’t really know how to start off this post because it is such a heavy topic. Basically tho, my younger sister and I have both been sexually abused by our biological father. Because of that, we haven’t seen him in almost 2 years. Now I think rightfully so, because of this happening, her and I are quite weary of men. I’ve also been sexually abused by other multiple men, (including other family members) so I’m even more weary. I guess I’m making this post to know if I’m being delusional due to past trauma or not.

Recently, there has been a lot of trouble in our immediate family. I strongly dislike my stepfather because of his fits of rage he has. So much so that I moved out for a good bit this summer, but had to come back. He’s been in my life for I think almost 8 years now, and has always had a horrible temper. I don’t know what exactly it is, but he has also always had something against me. I’ve kinda thought that it could be because I was the only one brave enough to speak out about the way he treats us.

Okay enough backstory time to get to the point. My younger sister, I won’t say how old she is just for her safety, but she’s woken up twice now with her clothes either being off her or semi off. She goes to sleep fully clothed every night and has never in the past in her sleep taken them off. When she told me the first time, I didn’t want to jump to any conclusions, but it happened again the other night while my mom was out of town. Our stepdad has also always favored her. He has always been way more affectionate with her, while the whole 8 years I’ve known him, him and I have never had an actual conversation. Recently it’s been blatantly obvious that he does not care for me and is only acting like he does for my mom’s sake. Well while she’s been gone, the facade went away and he went back to not caring and honestly being kind of rude. Well today, while I was gone, he went into the living room where my sister was, and told her that he senses that she’s jealous of me. She just gave him a look. And he told her that she has no reason to be and that shes better than me in every way, especially prettier than me, and that shes his favorite. He also said that if he was a young man and saw us 2 out in public, she would be the one he wants. I’m sorry but that is so fucking weird to say. Now I’m not making this post because I’m mad that he said that, I genuinely could not care less who he thinks is prettier. Im making it because im worried. Im scared he’s trying to groom her, and then have it lead to something more. Like maybe he is testing the waters. She believes that he is too, and it was her idea for me to make this post but she wanted me to type it out.

Please let me know what you think.

TLDR - Due to recent behavior, I think my stepdad is trying to groom my younger sister.

So I (f18) started working out because I was sooo skinny. Well now I’m getting bigger, I’ve gained 20 pounds this last year so my body has changed quite a bit, but I’m still considered “skinny”🙄. I’m honestly okay with where I’m at right now but I still plan on putting on another 15-20 pounds. I just don’t want to get to to the point where I’m never satisfied. I already have pretty bad body dysmorphia. I’ve already noticed I’ve gotten around 2 more inches in my waist and I’m trying to not let it get to me mentally, trying to tell myself it’s part of the process of getting bigger. I just wanna know that if youve met your original goal, were you happy? Did you regret it and want to go back? Or did you continue to push and still haven’t stopped and still aren’t happy? This might be a dumb question but I’m seriously thinking about quitting lifting because I don’t want my image of my body to get too messed up in my head. I don’t wanna go down an unhealthy road.

So yeah like the title says, at least a few times a week I have a dream where someone abandons their baby and I find it and have to take care of it. In every dream, as soon as I see the baby I instantly get attached, and feel like it’s actual mother. Last nights dream was different.

It started off where I was at some sort of family function, and just found a baby, like a literal newborn, lying on the ground. I instantly pick it up and feel that motherly love sort of wash over me. I know that sounds cliche but that’s the only way I can explain it. I went around the whole function asking if this was anyone’s baby, and everyone said no. I remember just feeling absolutely distraught over not being able to find its parents. This is not common in the dreams I usually have, most of the time I’m happy to take care of a baby😆. As I’m walking around with it in my arms, I spot a man and instantly know that he is the father. I ran up to him, and I remember as I was running he looked so happy. well right as I get to him, I dropped the baby, but somehow caught it on my leg. (Still really don’t know how that worked but yk it’s a dream). I picked up the baby and without saying a word just handed it to its father and walked away absolutely sobbing. and then yeah I woke up.

These baby dreams usually just end up with me having the baby now. and I never drop it, or end up finding the parents. I’ve always interpreted these dreams as a sign to show that I am responsible and resilient, and I can take anything that comes my way. I just feel like this dream means that I’ve failed in some aspect of my life. If you’re able to, please interpret it for me, and even my past dreams about the babies.

edit: I forgot to add that the baby did not cry when I dropped it. I was the one crying 😅