I thought all my life I was straight but recently came to the realization I'm bi. It's all very confusing and I don't know what thoughts are real and which not. How can I do Shadow work and will this help me gain some clarity in my sexuality?
I'm a Male in his 30 with definitely a negative Mother Complex. My Mother was always a strong authority who would control my behavior, criticize when I was not perfect, not the most affectionate. Would also make a lot of decisions for me.
It doesn't help that my father was a bit distant so I didn't have many healthy masculine figures growing up.
I think this manifests as an inability to own my masculinity, to be disciplined and assertive.
I tend to have very people pleasing behavior, I can't stand for myself when something bothers me. I also know I have a lot of potential, but I rather self sabotage myself because I'm not good at giving direction to myself.
What would be your suggestions from a Jungian perspective?
I would appreciate your thoughts and advice a lot.
I'm a 23M So for Basically most of my life I thought I was straight, had strong opposite sex attraction, I would say around 3-4 times maybe I felt SSA, but didn't make it a big deal.
3 years ago I started obsessing about the idea of what If im gay, went the rabbit whole of HOCD, etc.
As today, I think I do experience some degree of SSA, its much more noticeable when I'm in Analysis and obsession mode. Thankfully my OSA is almost always there and I it's the strongest one(it was there for me since I was a kid), but when I try to analyze or fight too much the SSA, it kinda takes over and becomes stronger, which stresses me a lot.
Also the culture we live in and society's view on Sexuality is kinda pushing me to go and explore my SSA. However my ultimate goal in life is to have a Wife and form a family. I've always loved women and it felt good.
I don't want to never act on my SSA, because I would be shamed about it in the future.
How do I get out of this cycle and in your opinion what are good ways to keep SSA as weak as possible.
I've stopped the porn and other bad habits.
I just want to be close to God and live without worrying too much about this.
I experience as today both homo and heterosexual attractions. I'm on SR because I want to focus on my heterosexual attractions and in the future have a lovely wife and kids.
I keep hearing stuff from Lgbt as "be yourself" etc etc.
I want good reasons in order to convince my brain that keeping a straight identity will be the best.
Anyone with similar experiences? Thank you, my longest streak was 7 days
What are in your opinion some bands/artists that produce high vibration music?
Could be any classic band or more modern music.
After dealing for many years with Sexual Orientation OCD (prior to this all my life I felt straight ) one day I just gave up and said , fuck it I'm gonna accept being "bisexual" so I just got into Bisexual subreddit and all kinds of things were everyone says just accept it is who you are etc etc.
The OCD made it extremely hard cause I was constantly testing my feelings and if I'm attracted to that guy or not or attracted enough to that lady.
I "opened my mind" about fantasizing and lusting about men, and hearing that sexuality is a spectrum bla bla. Thing is without the OCD I probably wouldn't have gone that route and I wish I hadn't.
I guess as today now I sorta feel "attractions" to both sexes. Somedays I feel really straight again and it's amazing. But i just hate the situation I got myself into, and lusting after other men is a horrible feeling for me, but my brain somehow "wants" it.
I probably rewired it to that point and the obsessive thoughts don't help.
I wanna give a good try to semen retention to maybe help me focus on my purpose and have something else to think.
Sometimes I just wanna go to the old days as a teen where I felt extreme natural attraction to women, it's amazing and it feltbso right.
All my life I felt straight until I got OCD, for 2 years I've been obsessing over Sexual Orientation, to the point I've kinda just tried accept being bisexual, and got myself into a loop of overthinking, trying to test my attractions to both sexes, and with porn lust after it.
I tend to self sabotage which doesn't help, I would like to regain my life and stop this obsession.
Any advice or similar experiences are appreciated